I often wonder if others know the pleasures of a dunking booth on hot summer days, granted with forged signature, laced with liberties taken by both corresponding with the theft of a porno magazine! Memories as sweet as an A&W rootbeer float served in a vintage mug loaded with the best olde fashioned vanilla ice cream...better than any dream as it was an actual reality lived by you and me!
Relations of Revelations!
You're but a figment of my reality that has somehow crawled into my imagination, My untold satisfaction of unfullfilled distractions,
Half of the fraction of unmoving actions,
A gripping desire without any traction,
Never even aware you held me within your attraction!
Recapitulation of Summation!
There and then,
That and this,
Where and when,
Hit or miss,
Scent of US mixed on skin,
My love for you expressed in EVERY kiss,
Heart and soul your love within!
Ramblings, thoughts, feelings and such...
I swear I am probably the absolute worst at recognising cars and/or anything specific about any car in particular!
That being said there's a select few like the Gia Carmagia for one or certain Mustangs like the '92 Mustang (mainly because unlike other years, I absolutely hate the design that year!) I actually REALLY love Mustangs tbh and it's actually probably the only Ford model I'd ever care to own...not sure exactly why or what caused such a decided split in my preferences within a company, but it's there!
My point in mentioning any of this, or perhaps all of it, is to perhaps lend a sense of credibility to one singular statement...
... I ...
I can not "go back" to you, no matter how much I want to be in your presence, held in your embrace, no matter all the wishes I've wished upon countless first stars over the course of desolate yearning for you nights...I can NOT "go back" to you!
A person simply can NOT go back to a place they in fact never left...in order to return a departure must have first taken place!
So you see,
I can't return,
When it was your departure
That separated you from me!
Only YOU have the option and ability to return to me!
I'll continue wishing my wishes on every wish-able item that presents itself to me, in hopes you'll find your forever in me...please come back for me!
The stars cried!
Only the moon and the night sky
know the amount of tears
the stars cry!
Only the ocean and it's tide
know the the depth from which
the stars cried!
Only the stars know why
they solemnly cry!
The stars cried!
Such is the curse of me;
I'm always going to say the wrong things at the wrong times, even if it's right!
I'm always gonna push the people in my life out, either cause I care to much or cause I couldn't care enough. Despite wanting more than anything for them to stay!
I'm always going to be seeking acceptance even after being discarded, as I swear that time was the last time.
I'll always feel like I'm an unwanted, mismatched misfit who just doesn't belong, longing to simply hear my song!
Is loving me truly that wrong?
Ok so wow!
The UI differences between OS are quite unexpected and sad to say disappointing!
Why is there such an immense difference between them?
I feel like I've been offered the best of the best in each OS, only each "best" isn't even an option in the other OS. Like there's a limit to how many awesome features one can have depending on what device one is using!
I'll be the first to admit that I know next to nothing regarding the process of designing an app! Especially the design limits or abilities as per OS. I would think as the designer, one would want the same experience for users no matter their particular OS.
I barely used the IPhone version and the main difference ...
Observing Mental Health Awareness month...
How are you...REALLY!¿?
I'm guilty of it as are most I believe, the tendency to autoreply when asked how we are. Sadly it's because of my mental health issues that I do this, after all who really cares if I'm silently dying inside? Who really wants the real response when the question itself, is almost just as often as the reply is, an automated nicety that society has employed as an acceptable greeting. A few years ago I decided I was tired of hearing myself on repeat every time I was asked how I was, especially since my response was probably one of the BIGGEST lies of my life! I'm not fine! Hell I'm not even close to ok! I now usually reply wi...
Hey baby wanna come over to Myspace and Twitter my Yahoo till I Google all over your Facebook...
...then we can StumbleUpon a Vine and Pinterest with You(r)Tube in (my) TikTok until were both LinkedIn & we Instagram & Yelp!? 😂
Some are "affect".
Some are "effect".
Ironically both are
As to affect one,
will have an effect on the other,
thus that which realized
the effect, reflects.
Which thus in turn effects
the original affect!
Some are "butterfly's",
Some are ripples"!
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A flick of the wrist,
With a roll of the dice🎲,
A fresh start,
With-in the game of life🎭!
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The suns rays peirce through
Giving a false impression of golden specks.
A distortion of the proletariat.
A commonality only in tragedy,
My life in reality!
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The impossible hint of green,
The wild love you hold for me!
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The mesmerizing green hue,
leads me directly to you!
Nature -VS- Nurture
You CAN nurture nature,
You CANNOT nature nurture...
Will you be direct or simply continue prevaricating?
Keeping options open,
Should I truly trust and believe? Are you going to come back for me? Do you profess,
True forever love for me?
This is more than slightly scary...
It's beyond terrifying!
Are you going to come back for me? Do you profess true forever love for me?
This is more than slightly scary... It's beyond terrifying!
Are you finally going to find me necessary and worthy?
Is it finally my time,
For you to choose me?
Questions left with me
These can only be answered by you unveiling true meanings!
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Opposites are the world's of you and I!
In shadows where the lights hide were old grow young, life stands still, No need to say goodbye the young never die.
A huge matter is a tiny insignificant matter,
And tiny issues grow huge upon their misuse!
Our life path it's for you and I to decide!
Never hidden behind their masks of demised disguise.
Separation never forced is part of our life's story lines in place of their deceitful lies!
How do you compete
With a perfection
That was set in stone
Upon their death
I've been down this road before! I allowed myself to hope. I allowed my dreams to seem as though they might possibly become reality. I believed in love and of being worthy of it. I allowed myself to be my "vulnerable female"self for the first time in my life. I allowed myself to admit to needing another, not only to myself but to the other as well. I allowed myself to be open to EVERY feeling that came to me. I allowed myself to express those feelings, be it happy and smiling in love or sad & crying, devastatingly heartbroken by the rejection of my love by that other. I've been down this road before & my heart is still in love (& is HIS-1st) as well as extremely tender and sore...especially...
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Over time I've grown in ways and I've died in others!
Young to old, one thing has/was/is a constant though;
...and the feelings I feel,
EVERY TIME, your memory
comes to mind!
I've tried so hard,
to stop remembering!
It's no lie when I say,
It's EVERY DAY!
A tiny factor couldn't be
In describing you!
As more aptly
Larger than life,
Memories of you!
Wish I meant the same,
To you too!
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Living life without the opportunity
sparks more than
a tiny fear,
in the hearts
of wise but young souls!
Let inspiration take hold,
enjoy the soaring sights!
A breathless intake,
Of forever nights!
HE sent me 💔heartbreak,
disguised as a 🚶man 🏃,
who was disguised as a 👻ghost ,
that was disguised as 💘 love...
HE sent me U!
I've got no plans for the evening outside of spending it at home with my son. I don't even have a person in the romantic department of my life, that I'm aware of anyways. So why is it that I suddenly wish I had a fairy God mother and a pumpkin turned to coach with an extended curfew, so as not to need leave behind a clue be it shoe or otherwise, cause I'll be in HIS arms getting my 1st ever new years kiss as midnight is marked by the clocks chimes. Why is it that I feel as though it's supposed to be a night of magic where all my dreams and wishes fulfilled...a night starting a forever with the one who is my soul pure & true!?
All from a text at 11:11 from a Noah...BUT I don't (haha...
I don't know if it's you or I,
Who permeates my dreams
with anguished cries,
Perhaps it's both
as one then the other
and amber skies
time truly flies!
Just me ranting, trying to release the pain drowning me...
Stop loving me!
Stop thinking about me!
I can't continue feeling my feelings,
While feeling all the feelings you claim to never even have had for me!
So stop feeling them for me!
Stop projecting them onto me!
You chose her over me!
You chose to be free from me!
So go live freely!
Kindly remove your self from my memories!
No worries, don't worry about me!
This heartache will ease...eventually!
At least that's what I try believing!
So basically just like you...I'm lying to me!
I bared my heart and soul!
A+ pretending you were listening! You failed to even hear me!
You chose her over me!
You chose to be free from me!