Fingerless work of an incredibly talented blind man.
Swirls and splashes,
Green, purple, pink, yellow.
Abstract design telling a different story,
For every person who personalizes it.
He, who shed the tears,
Can only remember the torture of every Mark.
All I ever wanted
was to know you..
Your pet peeves & daydreams,
Your scars & sadly, your intoxicated extremes.
But, you ran way too fast
for me. I couldn’t keep up.
“Slow down!” I’d yell.
Running faster & faster towards my glorious hell.
In love I had fell.
Skinned knees & a dirty dress.
Nonetheless, I gave my best.
Unaccepting that you’ll always choose liquor over me.
Unanswered calls in the dark,
And what’s left of my naive heart, leaves me feeling cheaper than your bottle of Seagrams meaning you must’ve been just a reason or a season.
I don't know how to tell you this but the person I am has become the person I have to be.
To keep your loved ones safe, things have to stay the same.
Change is not allowed.
If I cannot keep you safe, I'm afraid I will take you away because of my actions.
And it is my action itself that can keep you near me, always loving and happy.
Don't be afraid if you don't understand why I send you long texts at random moments to tell you how much I appreciate you.
A voice in my head tells me to.
Don't be worried if I tell you there's a cat in our house and you know that's not reality.
I can see things most people can't.
Don't freeze when you don't see my soul in my eyes,
It's left my b...
The blood gushing through my veins carries more pain than it can take, on a constant look out for a speedy way out.
Sometimes I resist the urge, but some time soon, I would give in, I must give in!
I was parched dry
Looking for reasons
To why i should
wake up everyday.
For i was always
in need of happiness.
The one missing thing
And then i met you,
You showed me
Happiness every form.
It is not just
I would miss
my reason to live,
The pain would
kill me everyday.
i know you,
i have experienced you
I am nothing
I cannot take
that pain ever.
Life is hard, but what makes it harder
is the feeling that there is going to be
no end to this continuous state of unhappiness.
It’s easy to leave, when she’s your addiction
What if she’s your salvation?
You are always on my mind. I literally think about you all day everyday. I miss everything about you. Your smell your touch your smile. Your coffee hair I miss drooling on your back. I miss hearing your bracelets. I miss my friend. The person I love with all my heart. You can say I don’t love you over and over but I do. I miss us so much. I believe with all my heart that what we have is together is real. Minus all the bullshit from Texas and we would have made it forever. I’ve been working on getting myself together and getting a plan so I might have another chance with you. I even got excited when I saw Austin message me on messenger.
Is it wrong to say I still am very much in love with you?
I feel like it is because of the pain your actions have caused.
Is it wrong to admit I can forgive you if only you’d admit to what you’ve done in the past to demolish who we were?
I have cried like a child over our separation and miss you so badly I can’t even bare the thought of it or it brings me to my knees.
I don’t understand why you hurt me. Why you cut me so deep. I looked past things you would’ve hated me for if the shoe were on the other foot. Read that again.
I reach out to you but you still ignore me as if I were no one to you.
It makes me feel small and insignificant and the thought of you purposely hurting me makes my ...
The most selfless and painful act of love is that, some people are just better off without us being in thier lives.. because you want them to find happiness, whether its with you or without you. I get it letting go is hard and impossible sometimes, but hear this.. someone has said in joy of others lies our own. And love can be painful but at the end of the day you also want your love to be happy and that keeps you happy.
Sometimes I wonder where my destination lies.
Is it near the bittersweet mountains oozing wails of despair?
Or near cut-throat lanes filled with apathetic shoves and judgmental glares?
Do I save my nation or do I stoke the fire of my desire;
Was life so complicated a year ago?
Nay, it was all about the family's ire.
Does it hurt to turn a blind eye, to live comfortably in delusion
While the echoing screams in the distance cripple much of the seclusion?
Where does the peace hide, among numb simpleton bodies of five year olds?
Or among the haunting ribcages of the city's desecrated souls?
Prayer and effort, how much of it is accepted by the Lord
If half of it is lived in guilt, and half en...
Never hesitate to make another person smile. A child, the elderly, your peers, enemies, strangers... A little kindness always goes a long, long way and you never know what mask a person is wearing that day... an invisible mask that veils what is really hiding inside... You never know how thin of a thread a person may be hanging on by and what they may be planning if one more thing goes wrong, and you never know what your kindness could prevent all because you made them feel good instead of bad... So please, if you see something that can brighten a person’s day, just do it... and I promise you that you’ll receive a gift as well... the gift of a joyful heart.
The morning rays,
when the birds chirp.
When the kid downstairs
comes to play.
The aroma of coffee,
and the food i cook.
When the crows come in
for their daily meal.
When the love of my life
with eyes half closed.
As i water the plants,
the flowers bloom,
with it my hope.
When the elderly man
for this daily labor,
so does my inspiration.
My parents call
all laugh and smiles,
showing me life is to
Life brings with it
We smother it
and blame the
If one minute,
We sit and watch,
The glory dawns,
so does hidden pleasures.
strong under currents
Madly and wildly,
the survival game.
Seeking the unknown
A friendly foe,
A war of love.
All turned smoke,
Without a hold,
I scurry in dark,
Memories do matter?
there's a light,
Mostly it's just me,
How far ?
How long ?
Will i survive
to bask in aftermath?
Only time will tell.
Many a times,
I do not want to
I want it all to end.
What if it ends,
And i am left in dark,
Is it a lesser pain?
Or will i know
what i am against?
The pain is too much
I am bled dry,
Days are blur,
Nights are wasted.
I keep splashing.
WORDS ARE LIKE KNIFE
Never have I imagined that the words FLAME, PASSION and INTIMACY could hurt.
Not until I heard it from your mouth.
It hurts so bad to the point that it brought back the pain from eleven years ago.
Different situations, same pain.
Suddenly, fear creeps in. What do I do? Should I keep trying or should I run?
That's such a poor intensity word for a feeling, for an emotion so strong, so powerful.
Your heart breaks when you see a kid in the market crying profusely, for he can't find a familiar hand to hold and wouldn't take yours.
It breaks a little more when your neighbour hugs you warmly and hands you a candy very endearingly every time he sees you because he still thinks of you as a little girl he wished he could've fathered one like.
And it breaks the most when you feel helpless seeing an old woman under the banyan tree spending nights after nights because his son left her there.
But when someone whom you gave yourself to, whom you surrendered to, whom you ...
Over and over, the pattern continues.
I meet you.
And I get attached.. too attached. Oh so damn fast...
You had little to no intention on staying.. no desire to place me in your priorities.
The pain of your absence breaks my heart...
But not nearly as much as my heart’s site on the potential that could have been.
This insanity has to stop.
Before there’s no more left to break.
Ohh! The memories
And the pain
Like little fairies
To soar, to fly,
To entice and try
To make you slave
Of nothing but the light.
Make you wonder
Stand in amaze
Tease like fire
Heat and blaze.
Fire of desire,
Wishing you go back,
To those memories,
Knowing Pain is their sire!
What a pretty messed up week. I dunno why this had to happen, and like this. Guess things early aren't in our control.
It started with me scrolling on facebook on Saturday night or Sunday, to see that one of my friend's mum passed away due to covid and that really horrible. I still cannot grasp or come to terms with losing someone important, just the thought of it makes me scared.
If I wasn't sad enough, Tuesday morning, there was worse news waiting. A friend had passed away, n that was due to a cardiac arrest. Imagine someone just a few years older than you, just passing away like that. I still can't accept that. He was a crazy livewire, but one of the kindest people I've ever met. ...
~Talk Is Cheap~
I don’t know how much more I can take
I feel like my soul is about to break
This broken heart of mine is at stake
All this hurry up and wait
I grab the breadcrumbs like a fish on the hook taking the bait
There’s just too much I can’t relate
This shouldn’t even be a debate
My head is spinning like a disco ball
Sitting around hopelessly waiting for the call
I’m on my knees trying to crawl
Outwardly I just sit here and bawl
Can we please rewind and go back to the time when things were right
And we were tight?
Help! It’s so fucking dark !
Where the hell is the light?
It’s like night never ends
I can’t go on playing pretend
I just need you to fix this