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June 20, 2019
 

Deserted

Yesterday night
I was thinking what to write
As my brain was deserted
And heart feeling the same
lugubriously I tried to put the pen on paper
And failed miserably

I hope a better morning
When I wake up
Damn but I am not getting sleep
I was asking myself
Again and again
Will it be a morning for me
With any difference in me???

ORIGINAL
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June 19, 2019
Courtland, United States

Please make this pain end.  
I can’t stop crying.  I cry and I cry and my stomach hurts so much and my eyes burn.  
Breathing in between sobs is getting harder and harder.  Please make this pain stop.  
This crying, this sad pain is over baring.  
Just make it stop.  Please God make it stop.  
My face...I do not recognize you anymore.  This face isn’t mine.  
The heart break kills me.  
It’s killing me....slow
Just make it stop.

MOVING ON
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June 19, 2019
 

I don't know what I am feeling anymore. I used to be so damn sure of my feelings. Always in control of myself. Now? I don't know anything anymore. I am blank, angry, sad, lost, rebellious, irritated, frustrated. My head is spinning with a whirlwind of emotions. Making me incapable of doing anything. I am desperately seeking for a release. I need to fill myself with smoke, or be drunk senseless, or to draw lines in the skin and to replace the darkness with pain. Or the most fulfilling one - be lost in ecstasy. But I can't. I don't know how much longer I can remain strong without giving into my cravings. And to think that I used to be so sure of myself! Speak about irony.

- Nandu

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LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 19, 2019
Courtland, United States

Dear love,
I am letting you go, not because I stopped caring.   But because you don’t care enough for me.  
You will always remain in my heart, it beats for you.  
I will grieve immensely for you’ll be gone never to be seen again or held again in my arms.   
I will always think of you and that will be the only joy I’ll ever know.  
My heart is broken, my eyes wounded, and my soul will forever be missing pieces.   

LET IT ALL OUT
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June 19, 2019
Houston, United States

The worst I love you’s are the ones we toss out there as a last chance. The ones we hope that’ll change their minds. The I love you’s that sound more like .. don’t leave me.

NATURAL BEAUTY
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D.
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June 20, 2019
 

Dear stupid heart,
               I am just tired of you. Why can't you forget him knowing all the truth? He has never loved your soul. Stop regretting and start loving yourself. Love isn't ugly but loving a wrong person is really tragic...
                                    Yours,
                                    tired mind
                                    

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 19, 2019
 

We made the mistake
Of believing in forever
When forever doesn't exist

-nialla J

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 19, 2019
 

Should have stayed

Were there signs

I ignored

Can I help you

Not to hurt

Anymore

We saw brilliance

When the world

Was asleep

There are things

That we can have

But can't keep

The reminders

Pull the floor

From your feet

In the kitchen

One more chair

Than you need

And you're angry

And you should be

It's it fair

Just because

You can't see it

Doesn't mean

It isn't there.

                  Linkin Park

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 19, 2019
 

It's alright to feel emotionally devastated. It's alright to be an open wound in front of others. Your wound tells that you were brave enough to be a part of a battle. And your depth of the wound marks your strength to withstand it.

                               - Arunima ❣️

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 19, 2019
 

Mind's about to fall
Heart's ready to fly
Me and my Fear
Both willing to die

No words to say
No rain to cry
No reason to breathe
What's left, to rely

-Harlin

WORDS WORTH WRITING
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June 19, 2019
 

How he abused me

It started off with small digs at me, that i'm too fat, not thinking, or that i'm lazy. Those digs became monthly digs, which turned into weekly digs, and then eventually he told me these everyday.
He then started to control me, telling me how pathetic my friends were, how I didn't need my sister or my parents.
But then he would kiss me on the forehead, and hug me well enough to make me believe I needed him and that everything he is saying is for the better.
He was good at pretending like he cared about me, I wish I knew they were all lies. I'd trust him enough to tell him all my darkest secrets, things I needed him to be gentle with, but instead he would attack me with t...

THREE IN A ROW
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June 19, 2019
 

you never loved me
recycling the words you
spoke to them
with me
moulding me into
their memory
you never loved me
you loved the image
of their shadows
inside of me
how could you
you never loved me
just used me to make
your cringy poesies
I WILL find another
you broke the hearts
of one too
many "lovers"
I won't be your vendetta
you can finish the rest on your own
I won't be used as a mop
to clean after your messes
I won't be another chess piece
of your damsel in distresses
you never had plans ofus
it was always the fantasy of
yourself without me;
I've had enough.

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 19, 2019
 

Deceit is a blanket
Suffocating and heavy
No air to breathe
Trapped under falsehood

The shadows taunt and torture
A slap across the face
The taste of pain
Blood drenched mouth

The skies above
Masked by deception
Ultraviolet
To the human eye

Not good enough
Pushed down
Thrown down

Why does it hurt so much?

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 18, 2019
 

One day I hope I'll find you again. So I can say goodbye, properly this time. I can never recapture what you had, the frenetic energy you brought, the joy you emitted, the care free nature you so easily presented. I'm not you anymore, frankly I'm not sure what I am. I'm bogged by work, I'm tired out of my mind, I'm alone at times. I used to despise you, because I felt your the reason I'm like this. Now I envy you, I cherish you, because now I wish I could give zero fucks again. I'm not you anymore, but I won't forget, neither you or the subtle lessons you showed by simply being you.

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BE YOURSELF
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June 18, 2019
 

Me hubiese bastado con tan poco
Tan solo un gesto, una mirada
Una llamada, un simple murmullo
Y me hubiese quedado rendida.

Sin embargo el adiós fue inevitable
En tus ojos seguía el brillo radiante
Pero ya no había encuentros inolvidables
Tampoco ese espacio que inventaste
Cuando rendido decías adorarme.

Ya no era la misma ilusión
Se fue apagando, ya tenías otras
Prioridades, y yo salí de tu corazón
Mirándolo en silencio, sin palabras.

Mi ser gritaba esto es amor
Y no cualquiera lo encuentra
Y mis labios no lo pudieron decir
Porque también respeté tú silencio.

Ahora se que también me amaste
Pero te faltó valor para defender
Ese amor tan grande.

Me hubiese bastado con tan poco
Pero hoy es...

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 18, 2019
 

Para ti.

Hoy se que conocerte fue el principio de mi fin, pues el dia que te conoci empecé a vivir el mas grande de mis sueños y la mas ansiada de mis ilusiones, pero tambien empecé a vivir el mas grande de todos mis errores.

Confieso que cometi muchos errores en mi vida pero conocerte esa tarde de mayo fue el peor de ellos, conocerte significo dejar atras la cordura y mis principios, fue tirarme al mar sin saber nadar, creyendo que tu me salvarias me deje llevar por la corriente del amor y por tus acarameladas mentiras, aun sabiendo que el amor para mi no existia.

Ahora me pregunto ¿porque contigo empecé a creer en el destino? ¿porque confié en ti? ¿porque me ilusioné contigo? ¿porque dej...

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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November 16, 2018
 

He was playing tug a war with his past, and his memories had a stronger grip.
C.M. Cooper

ORIGINAL
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June 18, 2019
Union City, United States

RANDOM THOUGHT:

To truly be set free, you have to confront those pains that comes in the form of flesh. It becomes hard to heal completely if often times you have to look the shades of your past in the face and love them in spite of. Some you can’t always break away free from because blood runs deep. So you stay silent, until silence starts to become to loud.

-SMJ

LIMITS EXIST ONLY IN THE MIND
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June 18, 2019

There's so many things I want to tell you
I want you to understand but you don't.
we go back and forth, constantly this
tug of war and for what?
for us to be miserable. for you to have control
get on your power ego.
what you don't realize is what you are doing
isn't just punishing or affecting me but it's
also about our daughter. she loves me
even on days when i am in a bad mood
or when she is upset, she still finds comfort
in me and i'm her mother. she's always going
to want me, to know me, and to be around me.
i am good to her and she's more than great to me,
i'm so tired and fed up with hearing how you have all
this power over a person. stop it! you're not God.
you d...

ORIGINAL
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June 18, 2019
 

I am finally back &
         I am finally sober.

Still, I gravitate
towards crystal,
though I know our
good times are over.

    Such a struggle
    it is to abstain
    from that of which
    fills me with both
    exuberance & disdain.

     Unless on
     the verge of dying,
    I don’t feel that
    I’m really even living;
             In short,
         Disturbingly
         unsatisfying.

      I’m aware that
      my addiction
      wants me dead.
                  It whispers
                  sweet nothings
                  & gets in my head.

     Each time it calls,
     I answer & buy that ticket
     for the ride that
     breaks my heart
     every time.
     
     I k...

ZEBRA
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