Aasaan hai mohobbat ki kashti me sawar hona....
or mushkil hai isko chalana....
Log kar to lete hai mohobbat..
par aksar bhool jatay hai usko nibhana....
You My Love,
Glow in Me,
like a lighthouse wick, in raging tsunamis......
The glorious heart crying,
To the melodies of pain.
Fire dripping from the soul,
To make you cringe in vain.
Scorching desires within,
Chasing the sins,
Of past present and future.
Lying beneath the untamed fire,
The raging storm all around,
Witnessing the intimacy,
Of the souls crashing against each other.
The big heart will die,
And move to oblivion,
For it has nothing to do,
With the sacred sayings;
That love will last for now,
Or till forever!
He was a serpent. Filling me with mock trust and morphing me into a lifeless being as soon as I was too far in the enrapturement to escape.
I hate reminding myself of these pains but I know it is my story to tell now to all of those who are finding themselves lifeless in the grasp of a lover who never asked for anything more than a warm body to treat like a cold body in the sheets.
I knew it long before you did, that you were in denial. The way your hands trembled when i laced mine with yours told me how much bigger the voids were that she'd left behind.
We are separated, alienated,
and so disconnected
from each other, the
world, and ourselves.
We are sad, alone,
We are currently trying
desperately to feel free
while we simultaneously run
from what our heart tells us.
The soothing delirium setting in,
Dense liquor falling thin,
right into the bloodlet wound,
Evil was being poured into the bowl,
little did i know,
the same blood would draw,
the pentagram in the rituals,
and wound be served as the gateway for evil,
to enter its host....ME!
I didn't not know how strong I was
Or actually I forgot
When I was standing in the middle of the storm
So desperately reaching out to you
Holding my own hand instead
To walk me through...
Vir my pa
(To my dad)
I wish I knew how to talk to you; how to express what I feel, to explain why I’m sad. But I never had to, and now I can’t. I’ve never felt more alone, more torn away from you...
For sixteen years I had you all to myself: You and I against the world; me on your shoulders, you leading the way. I will always love you, but since you chose to remarry, I’ve been watching you from the sidelines, standing by myself, having to fight my demons alone. Can’t you see I’m unhappy? Alone? Depressed?
I guess this is where I have to walk my own path now. I wish you all the best, and I hope your new wife (who, may I add, promised not to tear us apart) is not going to break your heart,...
Tenacious egos, pacing thoughts,
Brawling emotions, iffy repercussions,
Fondness refutes, animosity concedes,
Reservations flood, resentment flares,
Time dawdles, breathe abates,
Words fumbles, vision blurs
Heart pounds, knees trembles,
Chills pass through the spine, palms sweat,
Tears gasps, mouth dries,
Senses paralyzed, motions paused
Verdict hangs in by the thread.
Realisation hits so hard.
Threatening my sole solance.
One move, is all that is needed to end this.
Yet I hang on to the same , over and over
Suffocating the sobriety that is left within.
Tell Me You Are Real,
Because I Find You In Places Where I Want To Be Alone...
To The Father I needed, but I didn't have :
You are quite something, a masterpiece to top the list. When I was young, you showed me that some dangers will be very close... Like the danger of abandonment and anger... Confusion and envy. While I was younger, you stood aside while was crying out for attention, accepting negative rather than none at all. Oh how I resented your absence, and your lack of provision.
When I reached young adulthood, early 20's, I needed you to hug me when relationships ended. I needed your example to set my standards in all and current potential relationships... But you were not there. I needed to be daddy little girl, held safely while I cried and...
In life I have one wish:
a wish to die well,
a wish to be remembered well,
a wish to be missed well,
as I was loved well.
All I do, I do for this:
my dying wish.
Life is for not,
if not for this,
this dying wish.
I dream of this.
A sidewinder sleepily shuffles
sifting through a lonely telegram
a few decades left behind
and wondering whose eyes
were the last to behold it
whose tears left these faded stains
I always wanted to find that place
alive in the lines of a song
alight on a breeze of melody
breathing hope and purpose
between the subtle pauses
Immortal in shining harmony
Immutable in daring profession
The kind of dreams imagined
when every minute bleeds a tale
you'd never be inclined to tell
much less suffer to endure
New salt stains the yellowed page
lidless eyes rimmed and reddened
lamenting a goodbye
long since surrendered
Ever felt like dying, but then realized if you did there’s a chance it might be worst than living?
I Can't Hide facial expressions at all.
If I'm Annoyed, sad, mad, you're gonna see it all over my face.
He is all the simple things in life.
He is early morning smiles and Saturday cartoons. He is rain pattering on the roof and living room forts. He is hopscotch on a summer day or the smell of fresh cut grass in the spring. He is "party until I can't feel my face" and "cry until you have nothing left inside". He is the "don't forget to tuck me in" and kisses goodnight. He is whispers of "I love you" and tears of "I promise I will never let go". He is all the simple things in life.
And all the simple things are in him.
I met you for the first
when you were telling stories to breeze...
Then you left them and start walking. I followed you;
and you were laughing aloud,
saying jokes to the birds on the way..
I followed you;
without your knowledge, like a shadow.
When I sang my love to you,
You said me to follow you some more.
after Millenniums one day i lost you somewhere..
And my soul left me instantaneously..
All I knew about you are the stories
you told to the breeze,
and the sweet laughter of yours.
I kept thinking about you and
our love, which is yet to be born..
who are us...??
I kept thinking.
being a wanderer,
I never had someone to ask my questions.