I am finally back &
I am finally sober.
Still, I gravitate
though I know our
good times are over.
Such a struggle
it is to abstain
from that of which
fills me with both
exuberance & disdain.
the verge of dying,
I don’t feel that
I’m really even living;
I’m aware that
wants me dead.
& gets in my head.
Each time it calls,
I answer & buy that ticket
for the ride that
breaks my heart
Paiso ki moh maaya bemisal hai .
Kitne rango mai dhalta hai ,
Waqt hi tou hai madam
Ek na ek din badalta hai .
When morning wears crown,
with pasty light of near the beginning
When the sun goes down,
and day takes away its gown
When the night sulks,
and stars lighten up their town
I feel unaided
When quivering eve arrives, I lament
there in no one of my own
When tormenting spring,
glamorizes the lawn
All the desires, now have flown
None to surmise upon
like a bird, being tied to pinion
I feel alone
In fall season,
when storms splash
to me, no shelter is known
not any shoulder to rest on
When cuckoo sings,
in summer's morn
Undeniably! I am wretched and dejected
Life always glares with scorn'
I feel forlorn
3:00 am thoughts
Some nights i just dont sleep
I just escape
What would you do if I vanished right before your eyes?
What would you do if I filled a bath of water and layed there?
What would you do if I was numb to the pain?
What would you do if I found pleasure in my strains?
What if I told you I had no guards protecting my heart?
What if everything I told you was never said?
What if all the sins we've committed together were never played?
What if we were never here in this moment?
What would you do if time was on our side?
What would you do if I had your first son?
What would you do if you never seen his face?
Would you be okay?
What if our lust became true love?
Cause I Don't Know what if it all would.
When the dark is noisy and the pain is wild,
Will you have my back from the troubled times till the end of times??
By: Anindita Sarkar
Until my toes
Finally began to bleed
And I could no longer hear
My treasured Orioles sing
That is when
The times I have been
Were with people
Who made me feel alone
I have never felt
Than when on my own
I wasn’t interesting enough for the average person. Ive always been kind, consistent, routine. You’re apt to forget me if you aren’t actually looking.
I’ll bloom slowly, an array of colors and roots that seek the light and deserve to be seen, but in a world of short attention spans, I passed unnoticed.
The party in the courtyard; I was never included.
The knock at the door was never for me.
Like the North Star or the flowers in springtime, no one missed me until it was dark or cold.
I still bloomed. I still shined. Still, I was here.
A caterpillar in a cocoon, no one saw the vibrant bloom of color when I was quiet and small. So now when I finally soar, you have no right to be angry th...
A lonely heart which is linked with Passion,
slowly passes through a brazen fashion
The rainbow lights of open roads blaze
As in a dream I stand and gaze..
on lonely roads all alone
All i say is my heart so linked to passion is still so lonely and all in the blaze.
Hard truths of life :-
1. Everyone you love is going to die.
2. We give our lives meaning, if you feel like life is meaningless, that's your fault.
3. Life is game, find the game you want to play, learn the rules, an find the way to be successful at the games you selected.
4. Everything ends, Youth, Love, Life all ends, and that's what makes them valuable.
5. Be happy with little things.
6. Figure out a way or don't complain.
7. Life isn't a movie, you need to have a plan for everything.
The nights are too lonely to be spent alone
And I wish I had that someone to make this feeling go
But all I have is this urge
To find someone who’s worth
Not just my time but the time he is taking to arrive
What makes this person not arrive yet
Am I being impatient or
Is it something I will never get?
Time oh time, why are you so cruel?
Let me be with the one who’s meant for me.
In this Dark alley traipsing alone
Foreboding trembling this alone soul
Incarcerate me in your arms
As this soul no more longs for the walks in the alley alone..
Infinitesimal space seek in your heart ...
As I am Left afflauted by words you have spoke....
Dear Definition of a Friend,
You've changed yet again.
It wasn't so long ago since our last stalemate, but you've unsurprisingly brought out the big guns, Busy and Not In Contact.
Last time when we had fought over a similar issue, we'd decided not to use them frequently.
But I suspect your buddy, Definition of a Life, filled your ears with garbage to create discord and make you cross that particular line you had stayed away from till now.
You know, maybe it's just me, but I really don't get this charade of nonsense you've been loudly proclaiming about in the city lately.
I heard from Compassion that you ignored him completely when he tried to start a discussion with you in Church and th...
You will never achieve the peace
you desire if you keep surrounding yourself
with people who emit a sound that differs from yours.
We all thrive at different frequencies;
you should never get to the point
where you become accustomed
to high level noise,
those that do,
end up becoming what they hear.
Instagram / Twitter - @millsmc07
I watch you and you were going,
Slowly and suddenly
Makes me wonder
what if you would have stayed.
Because in my mind,
I want you to stay,
I want you to speak,
to talk about us,
about you never leaving.
But in my mind,
there's also a need
that should be seen to stay,
there's also some little efforts
that were the need of the moment.
Sometimes efforts are important too,
Words are important too.
Sometimes granted attitude shouldn't
And love shouldn't be one sided memoir.
- Aroo Joshi
Alone in a crowd,
Alone in a party,
Alone in the house,
Alone in class,
Alone in the car,
Alone in the room,
Alone in my mind,
Alone at the bar,
Alone in the streets,
Alone at the beach,
Alone at the mall,
That's what I feel nowadays,
Tons of people everywhere, and
Everyday I just feel,
Alone without you.
Now you've flown away
I'm left to wonder if you're
Lonely where you are.
Now that you're free from the boundaries of this world, I hope you have found peace and comfort and that you aren't alone (and lonely) anymore.
#lonely #CMJuneChallenge #WritungPrompts
[the leg is mine, photo by my daughter, tattoo by Adam Teutelbaum @rcnj_tattoos ]