You are not alone. In this you are not unique. We all come from trauma and the attempt to run from the pain. We are all the same and we all need each other to get better. A good friend related us to aliens, and non-addicts to earthlings because we are a group unlike the "normals." You'll always be an addict, but you don't always need to be controlled by it.
The Twelve Steps of Narcotics Anonymous
1. We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction; that our lives had become unmanageable.
When you see the disasters your addiction has caused and acknowledge your real need for help, you face reality with humility and open the door for a changed life.
2. We came to bel...
With one hand you caress your beloved pet DOG.
On your other hand is your favourite fried CHICKEN.
We are 'Humans' 😊
Getting woke up again at 3 am by that phone call. Wondering if she has been in an accident or arrested? Neither this time!! She is stuck at a ratty motel and her car won't start. So gone out of her mind that she can't comprehend what she is doing really. Cusses me out when I won't come to her rescue. I have dealt with her addiction to drugs, alcohol, sex, and stealing for far too long. Took a wrap for her many of times...No is what came out of my mouth and I could barely believe that it came out of my mouth too. It is a Thursday and I am not going to be late to work and deprive myself for the sake of you..no more! Get your shit together Lady! Spreading all this disease with to this man and th...
If you want somebody to be addicted to you. Its very simple.
Stay there when they need you and be honest in your opinions, that will add your value to their life and they shall never stop considering that value. 🤗
Tragedy too big to accept
Self medicated until it went away
Never saw it all go
The pain went, all that mattered
Too far, went too far and saw
Who's in control?
Quit to clear the mind
Found a stranger
Who am I?
Hi, my name is Niko and I'm an addict. I've been completely sober for eleven days and counting. I don't know who I am and it's terrifying.
Thanks for reading.
What You Drew
I need to lay my head
On your naked chest
Accompanied by the comfort
Of your blue sheets
I’m sorry for the stains I left there Between the plaid print covers
I wear your clothes now And wait for your return Since I can’t feel your touch, I resort to clothing that once belonged to you To provide warmth And protect my skin from the cold air
Until your return I will not feel safe Because in times of grave danger and distress Your arms are where I run to A sanctuary of goodness and relief to me And you are my favorite place to hide
With each joke I hear I find myself Pausing and looking to my side To hear your reaction And see your wholesome smile But then the sting of...
The Things I’d Do (Closeted)
You know what it’s like to kiss her lips and I don’t.
You were probably too drunk to even remember.
She told me she was too drunk to remember,
But her friends were sober enough not to forget.
The things I’d do for that memory he stows—
Just a sliver of myself prays
That I see your face when I turn a corner
Or see you standing there when I open a door,
But even if I were to, I would forget to breathe
For just a moment, but then
I’d choose to carry on by, unscathed.
Sometimes I wonder what would have happened
If I really showed up to your house that night,
The one when you begged for me to come over.
Luckily I was smart enough to tell that it w...
I don't HATE you, rather, I ABHOR and LOATHE you!
I KNOW THEY SAY THAT THERE IS A LITTLE GOOD IN EVERYTHING, BUT TO BE CLEAR, I AM POSITIVE TO THE MOST INFINITE DEPTHS OF MY HEART, THAT THE AMOUNT OF GOOD IN YOU IS SO MINISCULE THAT IT IS COMPLETELY UNDETECTABLE BY ANYTHING EARTHLY!
YOU ARE THE DOG SHIT ON MY BEST PAIR OF WHITE SHOES, THE SCENT OF RAW SEWAGE, THE NAUSEOUSNESS CONTAINED WITHIN A FESTERING BOIL, THE ROT OF A BLOATED CARCASS, YOU ARE THE DISGUST WITHIN THE SICKEST MIND!
YOU FEED ON THE INNOCENCE OF HUMANITY IN SUCH GLUTTONOUS FASHION THAT THE WORD OBESITY DOESN'T EVEN DESCRIBE YOU. YOU ARE A CARNIVOROUS PREDATOR WITH AN UNFATHOMABLE APPE...
LET ME BE YOUR MAN
In the mirror I see my face looking
Put a sheen of love on my body with you glam.
I can't afford to lose you, oh damn.
Let me be your hero, let me be your man.
How could I live, lady? My heart doesn't beat anymore,
Now it sings your name, doesn't let anyone through the door.
Come, stop me from dying, I can't live alone.
Let yourself to feel me, don't just be a coldstone.
I'm burning, I'm crying, it feels like I'm into a fire.
Tell me that you love me, help me, don't just be a liar.
Come and hold my losing breath, kiss me now forever.
Caress the kid in me, tell me, you won't leave me, never.
Just when you're away, I can feel the thunder....
He is lost
And never knows
He is coming or going
And even if he did
He wouldn't know
How to get there
Is a series
Of blank maps
And well traveled
Now soggy and illegible
And this pretty much
Sums up his life. JD
*Lost* Father Part XXXIII
#BlankMaps #AprilFalls #PoetryChallenge
Sit and stare, sit and stare
Pulling back her silver hair
As this white bowl calls her name
Her mind is scrambled; it’s not the same
She spends a lot of time alone
Obsessing with her collar bones
Staring at her bare reflection
In this world there’s no protection
There is no shelter from slanderous words
As if hatred against her marches in herds
People are horrid, they’ll say what they want
They’ll tease, torment, torture and taunt
Like society say, the thinner the better
She feels the whole world is betting against her
Every blemish and every curve
Gets pulled apart by hateful words
Her fingers dance at the back of her throat
This was always the part she hated the most
She tried not...
He's off his rocker
From all the drowned brained cells of
Living in bottles.
*Drowned* Father Part XXXII
#rocker #CMNounChallenge #WritingPrompts
I'm addicted, to you, so very badly.
And I can't help it, I'm going with the flow, gladly.
I've started, to think over little things, very deeply.
Not just an addiction, I've realised: it's love, lately.
When we talk, I don't just talk, I smile, widely.
I forget my sorrow, whenever I'm with you, time flys blithely.
You've got into my mind, forgetting you: it's unlikely.
I cannot just forget about you, I'm all into you, badly.
When I'm with you, you make me feel, lively.
You've stuck, right into my heart, pretty nicely.
This attachment, it's progressive and not untimely.
At your bad times, I promise, to hold you and your hands, tightly.
For you, my love, I...
I DON’T KNOW YOU
I have opened my mouth twice at most
To project a vibration
That only your ears could translate
In all this time that we’ve existed
Within the same 29.2 miles
That cuff our feet
Cuff our souls
Cuff our spirits
And the most intimate encounter we have experienced Is sitting on the laps of plastic chairs Attached to metal bars With a slate of wooden excuses for learning Which happen to live Within a 3 foot radius of each other On the rare occurrence that I drag This sack of sadness I call myself Into a building where I know no good things come from
I cross my t’s to complete a phrase I cross the street to get where I’m going I cross my legs in an effort to display purity ...
A WAR THAT WAS NEVER MINE TO WIN
Don’t speak to please
Don’t speak to execute the presence of silence
Don’t speak because you are told
Don’t speak to hurt
Don’t promise for a moment Don’t promise a faulty mistruth Don’t promise your love Don’t promise me anything
So please Don’t speak to me Or claim promises that are simply untrue If you do not intend to tend to them
I relied on what you had to say I relied on your promises I relied on love I relied on you
You fell short You did not mean to But you lied I got stuck in a war you started with yourself And between the crosshairs I was struck by shrapnel And didn’t survive the fall
So I refuse to fall anymore I can no longer fall Because ...
with a kiss
from your lips,
Pressing against the folds,
sealing away the pain,
You burnt down walls,
Yet cold your heart remains.
From love stories
Bury them away,
Your brain has built you a stronghold;
your heart remains.
Trying to find the difference
Between the lines I write
And the lines on the table.
Some make me turbid,
Some make me stable.
You are not mine and I am not yours
But still you hold my heart in the palm of your hand
You didn’t ask for it
You didn’t want it
But it’s yours
You are not mine and I am not yours
But still, you occupy my thoughts
Your image never leaves my memory
Your voice never leaves my ears
You didnt ask to be here
You didn’t want to be here
But still, you are
You are not mine and I am not yours
We are nothing more than friends
You try to help me through my mental struggles
As I vent to you
But nothing helps
So I turn to the bottle
It’s easier this way for me to forget you
You didn’t ask to be my friend
You didnt want to be my friend
But still, you a...
I have seen the existence of a life without our love.
A fleeting exodus of the heart -
Paradise lost, felled in awe.
The ripples on top.
Red lushing rose,
You with your thorns,
You strike a pose.
I prick my finger,
And bring your petals to my nose.
And in my mind
to a time
And things were fine;
To a time
& a love
That we let go of-
Can we just go home?
These calm waters on top, hide the chaos down below.
I told my friends about you
Two different ones
And both times I caught myself
I don’t know why I said it Because with contemplation and analysis I don’t believe for it to be true But still it slipped from my lips Twice
I think part of me Doesn’t want it to be true Because I’ve never said it and received it In the same way And it’s never gone right before
Our bond is different And I’m not yet sure if different Is necessarily better But I do know that whatever it is I don’t want it to end
It happened so fast That by the time I could grasp onto Exactly what was occurring I was sinking in the thick of it With a sweet and serene smile on my face
Not only wer...