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April 16, 2019
San Antonio, United States

Dear Me,

this is a journal entry from 10 years ago. you've come a long way.

Drunk Expectations
the stairs were littered with old mail and chipped paint. every step was independently fragile. you could hear the boards rattle when walking the desolate staircase. i, drunkenly, tiptoed up the feeble and ill-maintained flight of stairs. at the top i fell to the ground and instantly lost consciousness. i woke to find my neighbor dragging me down the hall and closer to my apartment. she knew my drinking habits occasionally caused me to collapse and she didn't want the other tenants to alert management of my vagrant-like appearance. we didn't speak much to each other but there was a mutual res...

NOT STIRRED
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April 16, 2019
Delhi, India

             Your poisoned roots
                    Are buried
          In such shallow ground
                That your venom has been
     infecting anything and everything
               That grows nearby
     Leaving nothing or no one
                In close proximity
        Safe  from the malignancy ...
  My nightmare let's be honest it's  you .
                          
                                                 Soul❤️
                                         Shreya Bhardwaj

NEVER LOOK BACK
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April 9, 2019
 

Happiness
It's a drug
And we are all addicts
Doing all that's in our power
To get it
To keep it
To increase it
To protect it
Not always what we do
For happiness
Is what's right.

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ORIGINAL
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April 7, 2019
 

I
have
to
accept
that
I'm
addicted
to
you!!!!!!
               Luv$n♡₩

LET IT SNOW
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April 3, 2019
 

Her drug ended her-

And it began with just one cigarette moving to a joint, to pills. Her out of control body gave in to the temporary pleasure of drugs. Her addiction grew too strong and pulled her down to the pit she was once scared of. Pill by pill her body turned into a graveyard and her soul slowly faded away.

As the urge grew and money left her pockets, she got corrupted. Petty crimes were just a start which paved the way to bigger ones. It was the drugs all she wanted and didn't care how she got them. Caught as a criminal consuming small pills she was thrown in. In jail she was- broken, hurt and yet all her heart craved was drugs.

She got out of jail but her mind was her own jail,...

POETRY MONTH
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April 1, 2019
Jalandhar, India

Sometimes a cup of coffee ☕ rejuvenates in the morning...

But don't you feel it 🔥 ignites all the sleeping stress of the night too...

tKs

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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March 30, 2019
 

There's no other drug stronger than the emotions...

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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March 30, 2019
Pomona, United States

Oh my goodness that cheap ass fried
rice from down the street smells so damn good
I'm tempted to indulge in its
salty sinful splendor but I know
I'll be so fucking disappointed
and disgusted with myself
tomorrow morning after I
realize what I've done
~ Lady Sativa 🍃

CREATE YOUR OWN PERFECT SUMMER
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March 26, 2019
 

I keep my social group small

I build my walls tall

So when i tell you

That I need you

Don't treat it lightly

I am trusting you

To catch me when I fall

ORIGINAL
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March 19, 2019
 

It can be a perfectly normal day
Everything merrily going its way
When the weight of our history
Hits me and whips me around
Dragging me down

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LOST
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March 23, 2019
 

*short story*

Walking slowly up on the stairs. I never thought I will end up here. The rehab. A live in rehab. I need to be in here for 90 days, I got fired, I lost everything what I had. I am homeless. All for something stupid.
I turned towards my social worker and she smiled at me.
“We need to go in and check in. They will show your room after that.” I nodded following her inside and everything just went so quickly after that.
In no time I was in my own room packing my clothes out and putting pictures on the desk. I tried not to brake down in crying as I touched my little boys face. That’s all I could do, I wouldn’t be able to touch him ever again. Or my husband.
I looked up when I hear...

INTROVERTS WEEK
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March 20, 2019
 

I enjoy going to the moon
It's my only escape
I try to visit frequently
I will live there one day
I hate coming back down to earth
A bittersweet return
It's not so much the atmosphere
That makes my stomach churn
When I finally reach the ground
I see so much has changed
Feels as if a day or two passes
But its been years not days

                                ~ Lady Sativa 🍃

SINCHAN PAUL
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March 21, 2019
 

#childhood memes  

"It feels as if I was in yesterday ,those who are here of my arena please  shake your hearts with me"
                   Luv$n♡₩

LET IT SNOW
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March 19, 2019
 

#Skylark Challenge 183

To hell with your DREAMs,
Do as I say,
I have poisoned your JOURNEY,
Erased your DESTINATION,
I am the NEGATIVE,
I am your sin.

#Addiction

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DAY OF THE DEAD
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March 17, 2019
 

I keep moving
I can't sit still
I get nervous
That I'll feel ill
Emotional
Uncomfortable
Vulnerable
And unstable
A sudden flood
Of energy
Overwhelming
I cannot breathe
Will I survive
This painful loss
She gave me life
I must go on
Did she sit still?
Give into fear?
Why if she had
I wouldn't be
here
~ Lady Sativa

DON'T WORRY JUST WRITE
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March 16, 2019
 

I wish I knew you.

I wish I knew you before all of your pain. I wonder what kind of person you would be today, instead of the one I don't know today. I wish I knew you back when the wind blew hard and the rain poured down on us. Before morning coffee and on Sundays. I wish I knew you when you are alone. I wish I knew you before everything you say is a lie and all of the addiction. I wish I knew what you say to Her instead of Me.

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KISS A PRINCE
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March 10, 2019
 

So....

Opted to lose your mind did you?

Couldn't take anymore ay?

Ran into the smoke to hide

Blinded for another day.

The truth will out

I know you know

What will they say?

Where can you go?

Think about the children's lives

As they go about their day

Confused not knowing what goes on

Each time you go away.

The truth will out

I know you know

What will they say?

Where did you go?

Think about financial crisis

Consider every loss of earn

Embers floating all around you

Every thing that moves will burn.

The truth will out

I know you know

What will they say?

Where did it go?

Enveloped in forgetfulness

With cough and shortened breath

No money for to post your ...

PLAYTIME
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February 28, 2019
 

I would rather go through life sober
Knowing that I am an alcoholic
Than go through life drunk
Pretending that I am not

I dont care who you are
Or what you may have done
Anyone who choses recovery
Over the hell of adiction
Is a fucking warrior in my eyes

MAKE YOUR MARK
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February 26, 2019
 

       Every night before bed I look foward to my morning coffee.

                          -jenleeluna☕

MAKE YOUR MARK
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