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August 7, 2020
 

The Casualty
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All I ever wanted
was to know you..

Your pet peeves & daydreams,
Your scars & sadly, your intoxicated extremes.

But, you ran way too fast
for me. I couldn’t keep up.
“Slow down!” I’d yell.  
Running faster & faster towards my glorious hell.

In love I had fell.
Skinned knees & a dirty dress.
Nonetheless, I gave my best.

Unaccepting that you’ll always choose liquor over me.

Unanswered calls in the dark,
And what’s left of my naive heart, leaves me feeling cheaper than your bottle of Seagrams meaning you must’ve been just a reason or a season.

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LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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July 30, 2020
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It’s easy to leave, when she’s your addiction
But
What if she’s your salvation?

अ.D

WORDS WORTH WRITING
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July 13, 2020
 

“Happiness is when fate meets a dreams"
               Luv$n♡₩

LET IT SNOW
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July 4, 2020
 

It was a cool dawn.The sun was slowly rising against an orange blue sky. Cool wind was flowing from the window. The clock said 5 am.
I woke up to a new morning. My wife was still fast asleep. Well needed sleep from her busy workdays. Rather not disturb her weekend sleep.
Today was Saturday. I could see the entire city of New York from my apartment window. A low hum and sparkling lights of this concrete jungle. Like fireflies on trees, the windows of the apartment shone brightly. Each must be having it's own story.

I cleaned myself quickly and set out for a short drive. My Ford Mustang was parked in the basement garage. This was a good time for a short pleasure trip. Thought of grabbing brea...

WAKE UP AND WRITE
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June 12, 2020
 

Capítulo 4

*Así que así es como se siente la soledad
-Como?
  *Curiosamente nada, sin frío, ni calor, sin dolor, nada, algo decepcionante de echo, me provoca ira y desconsuelo, sin embargo siento un vacío por dentro que arranca y carcome lo que soy, lo que siento, lo que tengo, me hace sentir que no soy nada, que no tengo nada, la verdad es un sentimiento muy amargo, me pregunto si así se sentira la muerte
-Que vez cuando cierras los ojos?
  *Dolor, ira, rabia, y una profunda tristeza, prefiero vivir una mentira, es más dulce, es más fácil de llevar, es mejor una mentira a la realidad de mi vida
-Que crees que sentira tu familia?
  *Sabes lo que se siente el saber que eres una decepción y qu...

SIMPLICITY DAY
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June 9, 2020
 

Let’s have rough sex.
Let’s hurt each other.
Let’s ask for pain during what should be our most primal pleasure.
    
Let’s have rough sex.
Choke my words from me.
Make me tell you what I can’t say out loud.
    
Let’s have rough sex.
Pull my hair.
Pull. Pull. And while you’re at it, pull my feelings out, too.
    
    
Let’s have rough sex.
Let’s hurt each other.
Like we let people do when we were younger. And unhurt.
    
    
I mean it. Let’s get kinky.
Show me your vulnerability.
Whisper your dirty soul into my ears,
Bare it to me, so that I may judge you.
    
    
          Let’s have rough sex.
          Let’s love each other.
          Please. Let’s get dirty.
                     ...

INKTOBER: ANNA
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June 9, 2020
 

Cheers to successful ex sex

You know... that best sex

When you break off a ‘lil excess

Access those old depths

You know... rattle a hand around in the ‘ol treasure chest

Between well timed grunts and breaths

Pleasure and treasure her familiar chest and all the rest

Here’s to ex-sex

INKTOBER: ANNA
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June 9, 2020
 

It’s almost impossible to forget how it feels.

You and me, the pleasure, the pain, the love, the fear.

I want it all back, and I want you.

SIMPLICITY DAY
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June 6, 2020
 

You were in my dreams last night
And I had my way with you
Residue of guilt and shame on my pillow
I woke up thoroughly confused

Maybe this is why I hate to sleep
The temptation is always there
I deny you in my waking state
But you find me in my nightmares

My demons come out to play
My subconscious summons me
Just one more time, nobody will know
Let us bury your burdens in secrecy

I promise to never tell another soul
You know you love me and oh how I've missed you
You'll be fine, you have nothing to fear
All your worries, your trauma, can now be subdued

Come with me into my world
Let me take you away, let me take care of you
Because no one will ever really understand
I'm al...

BE BOLD
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May 29, 2020
 

The more I learn the less I know
And this has inspired me to grow

The urges, the cravings, the reservations
A long life unlived with lack of self-preservation

To speak of hope was a waste of time
Figments of your imagination unwelcomed in my mind

The fix in this case was never the solution
It was an endless ingestion of toxic pollution

And endless pursuit of selfish desires
My only goal was to get that much higher

While hitting rock bottoms, one right after the other
Because each contained a trap door that revealed another

An excavation towards death and destruction
Digging my own grave had become my sole function

Overwhelmed by the insanity and madness
Consumed by unrelen...

NEW
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May 29, 2020
 

I am so into you that I ache at the thought
My loins yearn from urges once forgot
I’m thirsty I’m going through dehydration
Longing for touch and hard penetration
I need you in my depths like a whale
Swimming to the surface to exhale

LOVE IT
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May 28, 2020
 

Over for Sugar

Fortune blessed us when we became neighbors. We realized from the start that we had a insane amount in common. We have same humor and taste in clothes. So it’s all to normal for me to come over and hang out daily for morning coffee and chit chat.
On this day like any other day I come in your backyard door and see you in the kitchen. Your husband leans in and kisses you bye as he leaves for work. You see me and grab another mug and smile. As I sit at your counter you slide the mug in front of me. You dive into a story about how the drive thru screwed you over last night and you are still salty about it. I listen and sip my coffee. You trip on your feet but catch your self but ...

LOVE IT
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May 9, 2020
 

I poured a few pieces into my palm
But my eyes grew wide as they wanted more
A sudden sensation of excitement coursed through my blood causing a rush to my head and a pounding in my chest
My hands began to sweat and my fingers quickly clenched
They defied this desire, this unwelcomed hunger
Still I entertained this temptation to swallow these sorrows
While simultaneously it scared me to permit these nihilistic considerations to consume my rational mind

~Kinky Eskimo

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May 2, 2020
Calgary, Canada

My Inner Thoughts

An addict dating an addict... it’s not always easy to keep in mind the love you found before all the hurtful words were said, it’s hard to find your cuddle in the flail you’re bound to, it’s hard finding time for one another when you can’t keep your eyes open because you’re on day #4... so when you’re gone all the time, to me it seems like you’re finding every excuse to be away from me, because when an addict dates an addict it’s not always easy keeping in mind the love before it’s all said && done.

In all honesty, my addiction is to you, if all the walls were to fall around us today, my home still stands because my home is with you.
If we were to lose everything in the ...

IT'S FINE
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April 28, 2020
 

It is kind of fun
to sip from a mug
smiles back at me.

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SIMPLICITY DAY
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April 25, 2020
 

I inched closer to you with each passing smoke
My love for self destruction, to burn and go up in fumes like them.
It all started when you were taken.
Forcefully by fate and far away from me.
Blackened lips and lungs are silent reminders of the impending fate
The glorious day of reunion.
I'm not addicted but it's your absence that hurts..

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SIMPLICITY DAY
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April 24, 2020
 

Waking up next to her...
The mornings smelled of coffee and warm hugs.
I have gotten used to her
But now in her absence, a mug of coffee wakes me up.
Her memories comes rushing in through my nerves.
I have been drinking coffee all throughout just to keep her close.
I'm addicted.
I don't know if it's coffee or her...

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SIMPLICITY DAY
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April 23, 2020
 

You can achieve ..
whatever you desire.
What really matters..
WTF really want or need??

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DAY OF THE DEAD
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