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April 25, 2018
 

You are not alone. In this you are not unique. We all come from trauma and the attempt to run from the pain. We are all the same and we all need each other to get better. A good friend related us to aliens, and non-addicts to earthlings because we are a group unlike the "normals." You'll always be an addict, but you don't always need to be controlled by it.

The Twelve Steps of Narcotics Anonymous
www.recovery.org

1. We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction; that our lives had become unmanageable.

When you see the disasters your addiction has caused and acknowledge your real need for help, you face reality with humility and open the door for a changed life.

2. We came to bel...

FACE YOUR FEARS
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April 24, 2018
 

With one hand you caress your beloved pet DOG.
On your other hand is your favourite fried CHICKEN.
We are 'Humans' 😊

PEACE FOR ALL
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April 20, 2018
 

Getting woke up again at 3 am by that phone call. Wondering if she has been in an accident or arrested? Neither this time!! She is stuck at a ratty motel and her car won't start. So gone out of her mind that she can't comprehend what she is doing really. Cusses me out when I won't come to her rescue. I have dealt with her addiction to drugs, alcohol, sex, and stealing for far too long. Took a wrap for her many of times...No is what came out of my mouth and I could barely believe that it came out of my mouth too. It is a Thursday and I am not going to be late to work and deprive myself for the sake of you..no more! Get your shit together Lady! Spreading all this disease with to this man and th...

EVALUATE YOUR LIFE DAY
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MJ
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April 20, 2018
 

If you want somebody to be addicted to you. Its very simple.
Stay there when they need you and be honest in your opinions, that will add your value to their life and they shall never stop considering that value. 🤗

EVALUATE YOUR LIFE DAY
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April 18, 2018
 

Tragedy too big to accept
Self medicated until it went away
Never saw it all go
The pain went, all that mattered
UNDER CONTROL
Too far, went too far and saw
The Light

Who's in control?
Quit to clear the mind
Found a stranger
Who am I?

Hi, my name is Niko and I'm an addict. I've been completely sober for eleven days and counting. I don't know who I am and it's terrifying.
Thanks for reading.

LETTRS SHERLOCK
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April 18, 2018
Easton, United States

What You Drew

I need to lay my head 
On your naked chest
Accompanied by the comfort 
Of your blue sheets

I’m sorry for the stains 
I left there
Between the plaid print covers

I wear your clothes now
And wait for your return
Since I can’t feel your touch,
I resort to clothing that once belonged to you
To provide warmth 
And protect my skin from the cold air

Until your return
I will not feel safe 
Because in times of grave danger and distress
Your arms are where I run to 
A sanctuary of goodness and relief to me
And you are my favorite place to hide

With each joke I hear I find myself 
Pausing and looking to my side 
To hear your reaction
And see your wholesome smile
But then the sting of...

REBIRTH
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April 13, 2018
 

The Things I’d Do (Closeted)

You know what it’s like to kiss her lips and I don’t.

You were probably too drunk to even remember.

She told me she was too drunk to remember,

But her friends were sober enough not to forget.

The things I’d do for that memory he stows—

Just a sliver of myself prays

That I see your face when I turn a corner

Or see you standing there when I open a door,

But even if I were to, I would forget to breathe

For just a moment, but then

I’d choose to carry on by, unscathed.

Sometimes I wonder what would have happened

If I really showed up to your house that night,

The one when you begged for me to come over.

Luckily I was smart enough to tell that it w...

WINTER WHISPERS
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Tay
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April 12, 2018
Toledo, United States

"UNDEAREST HEROIN"

Undearest HEROIN,

I don't HATE you, rather, I ABHOR and LOATHE you!
I KNOW THEY SAY THAT THERE IS A LITTLE GOOD IN EVERYTHING, BUT TO BE CLEAR, I AM POSITIVE TO THE MOST INFINITE DEPTHS OF MY HEART, THAT THE AMOUNT OF GOOD IN YOU IS SO MINISCULE THAT IT IS COMPLETELY UNDETECTABLE BY ANYTHING EARTHLY!

YOU ARE THE DOG SHIT ON MY BEST PAIR OF WHITE SHOES, THE SCENT OF RAW SEWAGE, THE NAUSEOUSNESS CONTAINED WITHIN A FESTERING BOIL, THE ROT OF A BLOATED CARCASS, YOU ARE THE DISGUST WITHIN THE SICKEST MIND!

YOU FEED ON THE INNOCENCE OF HUMANITY IN SUCH GLUTTONOUS FASHION THAT THE WORD OBESITY DOESN'T EVEN DESCRIBE YOU. YOU ARE A CARNIVOROUS PREDATOR WITH AN UNFATHOMABLE APPE...

HEARTBREAK
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April 11, 2018
 

LET ME BE YOUR MAN

#ChiragShah#

In the mirror I see my face looking
wan.
Put a sheen of love on my body with you glam.
I can't afford to lose you, oh damn.
Let me be your hero, let me be your man.

How could I live, lady? My heart doesn't beat anymore,
Now it sings your name, doesn't let anyone through the door.
Come, stop me from dying, I can't live alone.
Let yourself to feel me, don't just be a coldstone.

I'm burning, I'm crying, it feels like I'm into a fire.
Tell me that you love me, help me, don't just be a liar.
Come and hold my losing breath, kiss me now forever.
Caress the kid in me, tell me, you won't leave me, never.

Just when you're away, I can feel the thunder....

LOVE, HER
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April 8, 2018
 



       He is lost
       And never knows
       Whether
       He is coming or going
       And even if he did
       He wouldn't know
       How to get there
       His mind
       Is a series
       Of blank maps
       Once lined
       And well traveled
       Now soggy and illegible
       And this pretty much
       Sums up his life.        JD



*Lost*  Father Part XXXIII
#BlankMaps #AprilFalls #PoetryChallenge

ORIGINAL
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April 8, 2018
 

Sit and stare, sit and stare
Pulling back her silver hair

As this white bowl calls her name
Her mind is scrambled; it’s not the same

She spends a lot of time alone
Obsessing with her collar bones

Staring at her bare reflection
In this world there’s no protection

There is no shelter from slanderous words
As if hatred against her marches in herds

People are horrid, they’ll say what they want
They’ll tease, torment, torture and taunt

Like society say, the thinner the better
She feels the whole world is betting against her

Every blemish and every curve
Gets pulled apart by hateful words

Her fingers dance at the back of her throat
This was always the part she hated the most

She tried not...

NOBODY IS PERFECT
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April 8, 2018
 


     He's off his rocker
     From all the drowned brained cells of
     Living in bottles.

                                                                       JD




*Drowned* Father Part XXXII
#rocker #CMNounChallenge #WritingPrompts

COCKTAIL
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April 7, 2018
 

*HONESTLY*

#CHIRAG_SHAH#

I'm addicted, to you, so very badly.
And I can't help it, I'm going with the flow, gladly.
I've started, to think over little things, very deeply.
Not just an addiction, I've realised: it's love, lately.

When we talk, I don't just talk, I smile, widely.
I forget my sorrow, whenever I'm with you, time flys blithely.
You've got into my mind, forgetting you: it's unlikely.
I cannot just forget about you, I'm all into you, badly.

When I'm with you, you make me feel, lively.
You've stuck, right into my heart, pretty nicely.
This attachment, it's progressive and not untimely.
At your bad times, I promise, to hold you and your hands, tightly.

For you, my love, I...

NOBODY IS PERFECT
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April 6, 2018
 

I DON’T KNOW YOU

I have opened my mouth twice at most
To project a vibration
That only your ears could translate
In all this time that we’ve existed
Within the same 29.2 miles
That cuff our feet
Cuff our souls
Cuff our spirits

And the most intimate encounter we have experienced 
Is sitting on the laps of plastic chairs
Attached to metal bars 
With a slate of wooden excuses for learning
Which happen to live 
Within a 3 foot radius of each other
On the rare occurrence that I drag
This sack of sadness I call myself
Into a building where I know no good things come from

I cross my t’s to complete a phrase
I cross the street to get where I’m going 
I cross my legs in an effort to display purity
...

NOBODY IS PERFECT
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April 4, 2018
Easton, United States

A WAR THAT WAS NEVER MINE TO WIN

Don’t speak to please
Don’t speak to execute the presence of silence
Don’t speak because you are told
Don’t speak to hurt

Don’t promise for a moment 
Don’t promise a faulty mistruth
Don’t promise your love
Don’t promise me anything

So please
Don’t speak to me
Or claim promises that are simply untrue
If you do not intend to tend to them

I relied on what you had to say
I relied on your promises
I relied on love
I relied on you

You fell short
You did not mean to
But you lied 
I got stuck in a war you started with yourself
And between the crosshairs
I was struck by shrapnel
And didn’t survive the fall

So I refuse to fall anymore
I can no longer fall
Because ...

HAPPY EASTER
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April 3, 2018
 

Echoes
Envenomed
with a kiss
from your lips,

Pressing against the folds,
sealing away the pain,

You burnt down walls,
Yet cold your heart remains.

From love stories
You wish
You’d kept
Untold.

Bury them away,
Your brain has built you a stronghold;
yet alone
your heart remains.

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CITYSCAPE
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April 1, 2018
Natick, United States

Trying to find the difference
Between the lines I write
And the lines on the table.

Some make me turbid,
Some make me stable.

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BLACK AND WHITE MOVEMENT
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Sam
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March 31, 2018
 

You are not mine and I am not yours

But still you hold my heart in the palm of your hand

You didn’t ask for it

You didn’t want it

But it’s yours

I’m sorry

You are not mine and I am not yours

But still, you occupy my thoughts

Your image never leaves my memory

Your voice never leaves my ears

You didnt ask to be here

You didn’t want to be here

But still, you are

I’m sorry

You are not mine and I am not yours

We are nothing more than friends

You try to help me through my mental struggles

As I vent to you

But nothing helps

So I turn to the bottle

It’s easier this way for me to forget you

I mean

You didn’t ask to be my friend

You didnt want to be my friend

But still, you a...

DAY OF TRUTH
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March 31, 2018
 

I have seen the existence of a life without our love.

A fleeting exodus of the heart -

Paradise lost, felled in awe.

O-
The ripples on top.

Xxxxxx

Red lushing rose,
You with your thorns,
You strike a pose.

I prick my finger,

And bring your petals to my nose.

Ascent!

And in my mind
I climb,

to a time

when you
were mine

And things were fine;

To a time
& a love
That we let go of-

My beloved,

Can we just go home?

These calm waters on top, hide the chaos down below.

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MARIO BUSTED
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March 29, 2018
Easton, United States

That Word

I told my friends about you
Two different ones
And both times I caught myself
Saying it,
That word

I don’t know why I said it
Because with contemplation and analysis
I don’t believe for it to be true
But still it slipped from my lips
Twice

I think part of me
Doesn’t want it to be true
Because I’ve never said it and received it
In the same way
And it’s never gone right before

Our bond is different
And I’m not yet sure if different
Is necessarily better 
But I do know that whatever it is
I don’t want it to end

It happened so fast
That by the time I could grasp onto
Exactly what was occurring 
I was sinking in the thick of it
With a sweet and serene smile on my face

Not only wer...

DAY OF TRUTH
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