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December 9, 2019
Williston, United States

Dear Drunk,

Hello there Mr Inebriated,
I trust you’re doing well all things considered.

I just had to clear the air about a few things;

1.  First and foremost your neediness for validation is really on my last fucking nerve and I can hardly stand talking/texting you because no matter what the subject, it comes out. Instead of saying you miss kissing me, you ask if I’ve been missing your lips. Instead of saying you dream of me, you ask if I’ve been dreaming of you.  I can hardly stand how much validation you need. It’s a real problem cause I hate stroking your inflates ego with bullshit pettiness that really doesn’t mean diddly squat. Just stop already. If I miss you, I’ll be the one to t...

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December 5, 2019
 

"We're all just a bunch of addicts, struggling with our drug of choice." - JmStorm

I'm sorry I was faded for a conversation
I stayed silent around your love
I was overly medicated for our phone call
I didn't know love was more than just a saying
I never showed you how much I really love you
I went through our life without showing you what love is
But I need you to know
That I'm terrified of the future
Because without you I'm nobody

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ENDLESS STARS
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December 3, 2019
 

I wish I would've had my phone at KFC tonight. The BBQ big crunch stacker. Double. It was so greasy it slipped out of my hand, off the table and right on my grandmother's lap haha. Ruined those pants for sure. Ive been home for an hour now and it's finally hit me. My stomach is too heavy to move off of this lazy boy. Now with that added to my weekly diet along with bigmacs, sweet and sour chicken, roast beef sandwiches and endless coffee Ill probably live forever.

I talked to an Aussie girl on and off for about 6 years online. I pushed her away again. I've done it several times over the years., She'd block me, I'd look her up a few months later and we'd talk again until I ruined it again. T...

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November 25, 2019
 

Alone in the dark
Nothing is as is seems
No one knows im here
Nor can anyone hear my screams
I lay here and wonder
If this lifes worth defeating
Would it all get better if my heart stopped beating.
I close my eyes
And feel closer to death
It happens that way alot
When your addicted to Meth.
I have no real friends
Only people to get high with
People i see in jail and strangers i may die with.
Its tiring its lonely its not the life i wanted to live
Ive done things i cant forget
And things people probably cant forgive.

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COMING FOR YOU
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November 23, 2019
 

                     
                        WORRY 101

You see, that's the thing about Worry, my love,
It's addictive.
You find yourself tuning into it,
The moment you are alone.
Like an unending novel you can't wait to complete.

From one scenario to the other,
Your mind unwinds down the familiar spiral.
There's always another worry to worry about.
There's always more string than pearls.

You see, that's the thing about Worry, my love,
It's infinite.

It doesn't require a rooftop balcony,
Or a designated area.
Public Worrying isn't an offence, not yet.
There's nothing to purchase,
Nothing to deal.

You see, that's the thing about Worry, my love,
It's convenient.

So I could go on and on ...

ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS
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November 22, 2019
 

People are not addicted to alcohol or drugs,
They are addicted to escaping Reality....

Navanshu Dhar

STARS
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November 21, 2019
 


                     I can still see them;
   Smell them; taste them - the smoke filled
                 Rooms of my childhood.

                                   JD







*No Escape*
The essence lingers forever - in the walls, the carpets, your
mind, and your soul.


#SmokeFilledRooms #NovemberFalls poetry challenge

ORIGINAL
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November 8, 2019
Milford, United States

Hey, everyone!

I just got done eating some yummy pizza, and I’m glad that it’s the weekend because I’ll be able to relax, which is awesome! 😎 I never used to enjoy relaxing when I was younger, but as I’ve gotten older, I appreciate being able to relax so much more! Relaxing can rejuvenate your body in ways that you wouldn’t believe, and relaxing even for a little while can make the biggest difference!

We just turned our clocks back last weekend, and it’s 8:45 PM here right now, even though it feels like it’s midnight! I wish it would stay light outside year-round! That’s wishful thinking though, right?

As the holidays are fast approaching, here are a few questions that are on my mind co...

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October 31, 2019
 

Halloween, Samhain or what ever name you call October 31.

It has been one year of being smoke free.

I know I still have a problem because I still crave it. I still think about it. Every now and then I forget and look for my pack.

I still find it hard to breathe sometimes. Especially when I'm walking, that seems to be the hardest.

Although, being sick isn't as bad. I don't cough as hard or as much and my chest doesn't hurt. At least not like it used to.

I can be around people smoking that does not bother me or make me crave. I only crave when I'm alone and my thoughts are running wild.

I have an addiction and I know it. I am recovering. It has been a year without it.

              ...

SILVER CLOCK
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October 25, 2019
 

#WEEKLYCHALLENGE

She feels complete..
With a thought of his presence in her life.
Just to make her feel happy & alive.
Just like a warm coffee in her hand
While watching cute little turtle playing in a jar kept on a stand in her studio apartment since she chose to slow down to breathe and not to chase what's not belongs to her in this life .

-Rav.

THE EDISON BULB
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October 17, 2019
 

It's been a hard couple of months..
Trying to make it work...
For us...
For our children...
For our family....
You say you love me...
You say you care...
You say you'll stop doing things...
You think I'm happy...
You think I'm fine...
You think we're alright now...

Couple of months go by...
You got brave...
You did all them things again...
And again...
And again...
You didn't come home for 11 hours...
Your daughter cried herself to sleep because your the only one she wanted...
You didn't believe me...
She tells mummy she likes daddy...
But yet when you yell she crys and comes to mummy...
She's scared of you...
So am I...
The baby doesn't know...
You think your safe...
Your not.

But neither ...

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY
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October 13, 2019
 

Love is not a hot house flower
Its a wild flower
Born of a wet night
Born of an hour of sunshine
Sprung from wild seeds
Blown along the road by a wild wind
And
When it blooms by chance
Within the hedge of our garden we call....a flower
When it blooms outside we call.....a weed

- Forsyte saga

MADE WITH LOVE
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October 12, 2019
 

My eyes became so dark
I began to wonder
if I still had a soul

~Lady Sativa 🍃

SNOW WRITE
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October 11, 2019
Lamar, United States

We all look for an addiction to ease the pain
My addiction is you

ORIGINAL
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October 11, 2019
Udaipur, India

My mind is a mess,
A mess!
Something has broken,
I feel the pieces, they hurt.
I want to lie down
In his t-shirt
And cry myself to sleep,
Not the clichèd tub of
Icecream but
Alot of sour candies,
And a cup of hot tea.
I feel it burning inside me,
Anger !
I can taste venom on my lips.
I want to hit something so bad!
So bad!
I have a slideshow of memories in my head, driving me crazy!
Crazy! Insane!
I want my hands tied,
And all attempts to reach you to fail.
I have a series of questions to ask
But answered none!
None!
I use comedy as my defense,
I laugh and crack jokes,
I taunt and I self mock!
Nothing brings peace,
My mind is a mess
A mess!
I feel terrible, less human!
Like a dobby of this cr...

MADE WITH LOVE
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October 11, 2019
Hyderabad, India

From an innocent lover to becoming a funny drug addict
I just wonder what changes people in such a drastic way

Is it the love or the betrayal?

-Sid

MADE WITH LOVE
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September 29, 2019
 

(IWP, Friday, September 27, 2019)
Sometimes I wonder if you are the reason I do these things to myself, if I would still be on this path, fighting this battle if I had not left you. It hurts. Sometimes I wonder if the high is worth the comedown. Other days I wonder if I develope the high to experience the comedown. I was always in love with scraping my knees after every time I fell. That could explain my love for you. You brought a damn good high, but the comedown, the aftermath brought me undeniable bliss. Maybe this is why I'm so reluctant to fall in love with someone else. I know the high may be better, but the come down not burn like you did. I still feel the sting of you on my skin.

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September 29, 2019
 

Ik mis het om boos te zijn
Om te schreeuwen en te slaan

Om te koken van de woede
En passievol kapot te gaan

Ik mis het om te vechten
Om gelijk van mens tot mens
Elkaar toegewijd te haten
En niet los meer willen laten

Ik mis het op de rand te staan
Ik mis het om te ver te gaan
Ik mis het zonder wrok of spijt
Vermorzelen van tederheid

Ik mis het hemels hulpeloos
Ik mis het razend roekeloos
Ik mis verdrinken in de strijd
En het verlies van waardigheid

Verslaafd
verstomt
verslagen

En met volle overgave

Zal ik steeds mezelf verlagen

Ga ik op in de extase

SEE IT SHARP
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September 25, 2019
 

I'm Happy Being Me

Your pride will kill you
Be humble, if not you'll die alone too
You pushed away someone who without questing would go to war with you
Our whole relationship wasted
Spent inside your head
You're imagination played you
Painting a picture of the drug addict me
Making it where you thought you didn't have to respect me
The silent treatment controlled me
Picking apart my personality
Your imagination convinced me
I believed you were better than me
Turns out you fight the same demons as me
Check to check
Now I know why you went days without speaking to me
Your tolerance continues to increase
Pain killers are expensive
But without them it's hard to sleep, Wake up, Eat, Work, Laugh,...

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September 14, 2019
 

You heard about Barbiturate?
It's a drug. You know what drugs do?
Gets you addicted
Like you
So, I decided to get rid of you
But you were second skin to me
And i was afraid to peel it
Because that would hurt
And I couldn't tolerate
So, I decided to ignore you
But you know,  when you ignore something
It comes back with force
So did you
Therefore,  I decided to
Go far away
But how do you go far away?
Far away from your home
Finally,  I decided to end my life
I took the scalpel
Marked the veins
Blood oozing out
I saw the color,
RED
Like I saw it when you
Abused
Hit
Assaulted
I embraced it this time
Allowing it to cover me
And then I saw
White

FEEL IT WRITE IT
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