So just after a year, I thought of this again. And I came back..
So many things have changed and changes are always for good. Hopefully my old pals and Drew still remember me!
Just like this world, so many things have changed in my life as well from last one year and they will continue to be.
Hoping to write something again soon. Will be back for sure.
Missed you all!!
Wishing you all a very Happy New Year ahead...
when the inferiority complex of one person becomes a problem of your partner.
when your missing trust makes your partner ask whether you love her.
when you give your partner the feeling that she is obviously about to behave bad or cheat.
when going to a party is connected with hours of fights and tears.
when your partner only thinks about cheating, because you accuse her to do so all the time.
when the fear of losing your partner leads to losing your partner.
*Where Did I Go Wrong*
From the day that I first met you,
To this day when we part our ways.
I have only wanted the best for you,
And have prayed for your happiness, always.
Back when you and I were just friends,
I still just wanted to make you smile,
We laughed, we dreamed, made some promises too.
From friends we became lovers for a while.
I would call your name, we would sing our song.
And you would say, with me you belong.
In all those laughs, and all the love,
Tell me where, where did I go wrong?
I was always weak, but you, you were strong.
I lost way too soon, couldn't last that long,
All I did was love you, with all my heart,
But tell me where, where did I go wrong?
Yes we had ou...
I have gained from the past
my strength, my tenderness and now I carry everything on my shoulders,
that I never dared to say... sometimes I am broken, sometimes I am Fearless and full of fear at the same time ...
sometimes I become a song that is heard by all, understood by NONE... this smile hides all the cracks and pains... a lot of accumulated melancholy in my eyes!!!
I can write a hundred things..
About the mid day meal,
Or about the lengthy evening that I spent with myself,
I can write a hundred things about the silence I hold endlessly,
And the pain of being left alone in the carnival.
I can write...
But to whom should I write?
The voice becomes wave motion. Trembling the air.
The air becomes wind. Blowing through this planet.
This air might be...
I wish I could restore
every single her voice,
from this air.
I can only hear it
in my head.
Dare I say, I can't compare
Her eyes, her bod, her perfect hair
I cannot stand how I feel
Your love for her are still so real
I sit and pretend to be ok
But your mind is on her while we lay
I'm only your consolation prize
You see through me and into her eyes
Can I go on like this forever
I know I deserve so much better
Y se veía fantástica, tan hermosa como nunca, resplandeciente su sonrisa y su Encantadora manera de vestir de niña.
My Dear Putri,
I’m sorry it takes me this long to finally find you (to say the least in the most unexpected place at the perfect time).
I’ve run, I’ve hurt, I’ve loved, I’ve been hurt, I’ve been loved, I’ve disappointed others and been disappointed, I cried, I laughed, but one thing I never had was to feel naturally, utterly and genuinely happy to see your smile that warms my heart when we first met, as if we’ve known each other for eternity.
I am honored to be given a chance to take your hands. to be embarrassed in front of your family and to take a leap of faith to eternity of nagging and bragging. Your heart and kindness is the home I never imagined that I could ever have and I promise y...
A new year is almost here...
It’s been quite a while since I’ve written anything or put my own personal feelings on here. I’ve read all my past letters that I would never send and decided it was time to write something new, a final farewell..
Many months ago, we said our final goodbyes. You told me you were engaged after ignoring me for three months. I was devastated. I had loved you more than anyone before...had given you more of me than anyone...my time and effort and years felt wasted. There had never been a future for us but I had always vainly hoped and prayed there would be...I was angry and hurt, but still loved you.
Alas, more months have passed and you are happily en...
He stood there at the edge of the stream,
He stood there at the very precipice.
He looked down at the stream he was asked to cross,
He wondered if it was worth the cause.
He judged the gushing waters for its depth, wondered if he could wade through.
He saw how the ebbing stream would consume him, saw how his odds were askew.
He knew, if he dived then, he would drown.
So he could either choose to never come back.
Or he could first learn how to swim.
And believe me, whatever he does, it is just perfectly fine.
Because at times it is okay to resign, you do not always have to dive.
And even if you do, it is again okay to time your dive.
Because it only counts if you survive.
This year was been a rollar coaster. With joy, fear and sadness, i can't even think of where to begin. 2017 had helped me grow so much by breaking me down and showing me the big picture. This year i have expanded my business as a dj, made much more friends, survived an illness with very little damage, quit my job of over eleven years so that i can grow, and have found a very special girl that i call mine. And through this all i want to thank my family for always standing by my side and supporting me in any endeavor i choose to pursue. And if 2017 is a prequel to 2018, then i want to tell 2018, I'm ready.
The phantom of your hearts
Give me a reason you're scared to let me in? Do you feel I would break you apart as I leave? Am I a fickle minded person? Am I just not good enough? Tell me because I need to know my flaws so that when I fall in love with someone like you again, I know how to make them feel like home.
Tell me why you wouldn't connect with me? Because I know it's not as simple as 'you don't want to'! Maybe you're right, I can't understand guys because if I did I would have loved you better.
Ya saludé a quien quería y también sentí el sabor amargo de una despedida. Ya dije “te quiero” y también dije “ya no más”. Ya besé con los ojos cerrados y también los abrí en algún momento. Ya amé a alguien con todo mi corazón, y también me han amado a mí. Ya me rompieron el corazón, y yo también he roto algunos. Ya he llorado mil veces y he reído también. Ya he escuchado música alegre y también música de la que te rompe un poco más. Ya he soltado y también me he aferrado. Ya he sufrido y he sido feliz. ¿Es éste el sentido de la vida? Ser feliz a veces, y en ocasiones tumbarse en el suelo y quedarse allí por un tempo. ¿De eso se trata? De dar y recibir, de que un día lo tienes todo, pero maña...
I think people talk about finding their other half a lot. But I do not like that.
I do not need my other half because I'm not a half.
And he is definitely not a half. I need him because he makes me a better whole. And I hope i do the same for him.
I need him because he makes me smile.
He makes me feel things I have never felt before.
I did not know what it was like to laugh so hard your stomach hurt until I met him.
I do not think i really knew how to love until I met him.
"Yo comí personas esta Navidad"
Lo que me sorprendió fue que habló en plural, interesante.