I really hope and pray that where ever you are & whoever you are with, keeps you happy & satisfies you with everything that i failed to do.
when trapped between
of light and dark grey
infinite and irrational
weave the middle path
between lines of
and utter black
fear no shade
People think that she is tight-lipped,
May be they are right,may be they are wrong,
Or may be she is just a person with the grimy past
with urge to tell,with a urge to forget...
Judging and crushing her at every step won't be enough,
She will keep on facing this barbarous world with the mask of sunshine smile with the darkest nightmare behind....
Because grave is never the end of evil...
On some days I feel blue like the sky is about to break, and the clouds are about to pour down heavy rain upon me as if they want to create holes on my body. There is this disturbing feeling that comes in big waves that never fail to crash on the shores of my fragile heart. Though tickled, my heart shivers due to the coldness that the waves of emotions bring.
On some days I feel lonely despite being with a friend and laughing so hard at his or her jokes. It is like being with a clown and finding him or her funny while watching myself from afar with a frown on my face. Sometimes the thought of how, if I ever disappear, my disappearance will not matter at all reminds me of how alone I still...
Without you in my heart, I’ve gotten to know God more. He brings joy, hope, and happiness into my life. He has brought me comfort through all this pain and turmoil the last two weeks.
You said I was dependent, and I didn’t listen. Without you, I’ve grown more independent and care for myself. I’m working on me now. Making choices for me.
With you, I felt a second love and compassion. I felt good about myself and my looks for the first time in forever. You gave me confidence.
With you, I learned new things. You pushed my boundaries and tested my limits. You pushed me out of my shell and gave me many memories.
Without you, I’ve learned how to live for myself.
With you, I want a second chanc...
"To The Bad Thinker".
How you see me
It won't change me to that,
But it will change your mind
From thinking good to bad or
Bad to very bad.
It will change your image
from being who to whom
And will show your real character,
It will affect you not me.
"You coward" (For all those immortal lives whose thinking is so little and very cheap who disrespect a life and because of them every other has to be suffered.)
I started as a seed in your hands, full of promise and potential. I grew in your arms, rooting myself in you, dependent on you for my emotional and spiritual nourishment.
Like a virus, I let you consume me. I let your presence take over my thoughts and drive to do what I do. I let it control my emotions and my feelings.
Like a snake, my doubts and struggles choked the life and joy out of me until there was nothing left but despair and worry of how I was going to get out of the snake’s grasp.
I let you in the darkest corners of my heart, where nobody had gone before. God worked to let you in to turn the lights on for Him so He could break the chains and make that space in my heart habitabl...
Freedom is not a destination but rather a beautiful journey of struggle, sacrifice and the elegant, relentless negotiation of you, and your unique role in this world.
If freedom were meant to be easy then the journey would not be half as glorious.
Our fingers stayed intertwined
Mesmerized in the love we found
Writing how pretty the world is
When we stood on our fairgroud
Weren’t we lost enough already
That together we wanted to be
To get lost in each other again
But were we what we needed to be
It’s our sin that we didn’t seek
The answers to our insecurity
That I feel now in your absence
That you seek now in my poetry
I've never healed all the way
Yet every time I'm on
A road to recovery
Someone comes in
And breaks me a little more
Opens my wounds
Just a little bit larger
Then it was before
Then each time
It get's a little harder
It's all a little hit harder
Then the previous times
And I find myself going under
While I try to save myself
With every breath that I take
I'm hurt and
Slowly fading away
And no one is going
To come and save me
For I am not that
Much to anyone
Someday, we will forget the hurt
The reason we cried for,
And those whi caused the pain.
We will eventually realize
That The secret of being free lies not in revenge, but letting things unfold in their own beautiful way
And their own time..
Afterall, what matters is not the first but the last chapter of our lives, which shows how well we ran the race, how well we enjoyed the journey..
So smile, laugh, forgive, belive and LOVE, all over again..
/MY LOST FRIEND OF THE CROWD\
"I remembered him mixing with the bad crowd, yet,
he never turned bad.
The crowd turned worse, that's why he marked them in red.
He was my friend, never a suicide bomber.
They wanted revenge, him- solace.
Never knew, it would all end up in the same place.
Forgive him, if you can.
He was a mere child of fifteen.
Now only the Satan had the audacity to turn on a new leaf."
I finished my part and sat back on the dusty chair.
I was sitting on the same place we used to sit while judging every passer by.
They hate him now unaware,
it was never his fault.
My ears keep bleeding,
As all they do is shout.
How do I protect him now?
He's my lost friend of...
There's this large wall up ahead,
Its too large to scale, I'm afraid.
I don't want to be here,
I just want to get ahead.
My mind is racing,
My fears run deep.
I can't see what's beyond,
I've lost the path I was on.
After a while of fighting with myself,
Of desperately trying to move forward.
I say to myself, no matter what happens,
I'll overcome the obstacle I see in front.
I free myself of old dreams,
Take my mind off downtrodden roads.
I chose a new path to go to down on,
To a region that's not obsolete or old
Wild is my spirit and my destination,
A forest filled with pine cones,
A place with tall trees and new hopes.
Pinning with Unrequited love for that human being,
wasn't your reckoning.
It was the pitfall,
the depth from where your love begins.
It’s so hard to not reach out
Send a letter
See you at work
Stop by your house
I respect your request for time apart
And in this time, I believe I’ve changed
It’s allowed to me reflect on myself.
No more dependency.
No more anxiety.
No more doubts.
No more lies.
My faith has grown stronger.
My love has grown bigger.
My trust has increased tenfold.
I’ve prayed for you every night, and will continue to do so.
I was not then the man you deserved.
But I hope and pray for a second chance; I haven’t lost my faith in us.
THE WAY I DO
I hope that one day
You find someone
Who, you'll look at
The way i look at you
And i hope she does too...
Please take me away
Even just for a day
Take every piece of me
Until the very last strand of my hair
I want to fly away
Move freely forever
Like a tiny dust floating on air.
There was this girl trying to chase her dreams, and God blessed her with more than what she ever asked for..