I don't know what I am feeling anymore. I used to be so damn sure of my feelings. Always in control of myself. Now? I don't know anything anymore. I am blank, angry, sad, lost, rebellious, irritated, frustrated. My head is spinning with a whirlwind of emotions. Making me incapable of doing anything. I am desperately seeking for a release. I need to fill myself with smoke, or be drunk senseless, or to draw lines in the skin and to replace the darkness with pain. Or the most fulfilling one - be lost in ecstasy. But I can't. I don't know how much longer I can remain strong without giving into my cravings. And to think that I used to be so sure of myself! Speak about irony.
I am a person that is strong.
I am a leader... A leader of one!
I do not need others to follow me.
I need no one to lead me.
However having someone beside me is a game changer! Dont get me wrong I'm good at alone. Just saying having an equal 🙏🏽
Memories are four dimensional. They take on a different shape from each point of perspective. We argue over what we see, because we all see things differently.
Time doesn't seem to stop in this unreality I live in. I try to hold on. The path isn’t clear and there seems to be storms heading my way. Dark storms with forceful winds. They appear to be taking out everyone and everything. How do I get past it without having to open my eyes? I’ve battled worse before and came out with a few scars.
I recognize the tricks my ego is playing. It tells me this isn't for me. I'm not made for this. It is so powerful and I stand there in the middle of the chaos. I refuse to open my eyes. For if I do, I may see the reality I choose not to accept.
No distractions from the outside world, it's merely a wondering soul searching for that someone who is no longer h...
No matter if you are a guy or a girl, no matter if we speak often or occasionally, I still love and care for you. You are made special the way you are and you’re a winner even when it doesn’t seem that way at times. You matter to me and others in this world even on your best or worse days. I love you all and if you ever need support or help I’m just one call or text message away 👫🌎👬.
Dear stupid heart,
I am just tired of you. Why can't you forget him knowing all the truth? He has never loved your soul. Stop regretting and start loving yourself. Love isn't ugly but loving a wrong person is really tragic...
It's alright to feel emotionally devastated. It's alright to be an open wound in front of others. Your wound tells that you were brave enough to be a part of a battle. And your depth of the wound marks your strength to withstand it.
- Arunima ❣️
Sometimes, the love and attention you seek from others is the kind of affection you have never received throughout your childhood. Our hearts tend to blindly search for a way to fill the emptiness within us. @PLECCA
He was playing tug a war with his past, and his memories had a stronger grip.
To truly be set free, you have to confront those pains that comes in the form of flesh. It becomes hard to heal completely if often times you have to look the shades of your past in the face and love them in spite of. Some you can’t always break away free from because blood runs deep. So you stay silent, until silence starts to become to loud.
Sometimes we cannot control how
our dreams arrive or even appear.
We may, however, learn to just go
with the flow, to learn the lesson here!
Nor would you
There isn't a dark corner
A moonlit room or a dingy night
But you, crying to an old song
That would make sense to no one else
You, the darkest eclipse stopping light from the intense crave of souls
You, the magician who should put your tears under linen from Giza
Or you, the saviour, should quench deserts from those drops of acid
The ones that sabotage the happy land
Don't show your tears to the blooming flowers, they whither away with each drop you shed
You, you the one, the crack in someone's dreams of glass
Your songs won't make sense,
To them, to the world
Nor would your tears, nor would you.