|amateur writer, love Kim Jonghyun, books n chocolate, predictably & unpredictable, trying to find the lost the spark in my work.|
I see all the seas within you,
Your demeanor depicts a thousand seasons,
Because it's all made with my tears , you know.
I really do miss you ,
I remember all the songs, you have sung,,
All the time when you smiled and had fun also
Memories, remembrance smiles, tears too are a part of my life
And as seasons change
My love is yours
Months are yours too ,
Just like my shy smiles,
Your smile is as radiant as the summer sun's glow,
Your shyness is the spring' s roses grow,
Your tears are like the winter rain melting in ice and snow,
Reminds me of " November Rain"
It was your autumn, since you decided to go
And saying goodbye to you, sure does hurt,
Your voice will forever echo in the s...
”If my heart gets tired I’ll keep it in a box and carry it around so people may never know if it’s broken and love me in spite of my shards.”
Blossom 🌸 of lilac
Every spring when the flowers bloom,
I think of happiness,
If time can be divided into frames
the first image is of me holding them,
It is a bright morning today
and with a slight breeze,
there was a shower of little flowers
I felt a sudden surge of happiness,
an unimpending feel of happiness touched my soul.
This moment belonged to me,
It was mine,
I want to keep this to myself.
I will remember that morning in spring.
There is a rainbow
The ultimate happiness for a skygazer
People gaze in awe
Starstruck and amazed
The flowing love and colors
happiness knowing no bounds, as kids flock the streets
But rainbows never last
Especially a pair of them..
It started with yellow,
Laughter, joy, smiles.
Then it was blue,
Your trust in me
Faith and confidence
And then red..
All the colors faded...
I watched as the rainbows disappeared
I watched realizing
I was losing you in hues.
Clarifying things or taking out his frustration.
Recently I switched to a corporate job again, it was an on-job training.
We have to clearly learn and implement from our mistakes.
Our peers have to help us.
From the past few days a senior person keeps on shouting at me instead on teaching me.
I said sorry, he didnot accept it,
I said, i will not repeat it once again, he didn't stop there, he kept using the same words, you knew it and you are making the mistake again.
He was just not willing to accept my apolgy, he kept on repeating the same things over and over again in front of the entire team.
He is not my manager, he is a colleague, senior in experience.
I was not clear on how to sto...
How do you say I am fine?"
I've been asked this question so many times; I have grown to hate the phrase.
I don't ask this question.
Because what if I don't have a solution.
A magical prophecy that will make your problems go away
I'm no magician
It doesn't necessarily mean I'm not ok or decent. Or that I dont care about others.I just dont find any use in being asked.
I don't have a solution?
Didn't think so.
I just don't want to be asked if I'm ok.
Things always crawl to the surface
What even is ok?
Do you want the truth, because its ugly.
Here's the truth and remember you asked: I'm sometimes so depressed I can't leave my bed.
Sometimes at ...
Words are over
The songs are over
No more fall or spring
The sun won't rise above us no more
The stars won't wink
No more wind
No more snow
We won't smell the sea
No more rain drops
No more pigeons , olives
No more taste of the figs
No more red roses.......
No more good or evil
Love is over, so is hatred
No more suffering
No more hardships
Our wound is no longer bleeding
We're no longer hurting
We're all covered in white
This is the end....
We're left without shadows
It rather feels so challenged, when you I'm not noticed for the things that i did....
I never felt so pitiful, for not being noticed,
because, everybody thinks " i never had a heart, an existence and a purpose to begin with...
And they are not even sorry if they destroy it in the process......
They watch and feel happy for having won nothing in the process......
Am i pitiful for having been born as a girl or am i a burden to everybody, eventhough i earn my own living....
People are so much engrossed in my life,
that it is suffocating me:
Everyone wants a say in my life,
Everyone wants to rule my life,
Everyone wants to see me suffer,
Everyone wants to know about my life,
Everyone wants ...
When you ask me
What are you thinking about?
This is one of the strongest things,
that I've felt so far
That SOMETHING that makes this
100 times more heartbreaking and stronger than anything else......
Thank you for being so perfect for me......
I have nothing more to say,,,,
but, i'm fine....just fine
And wherever you go
i want you to know that i loved you
There is so much more,
i need to know
I have so much to tell you
more about myself n my love for you
I just miss you in a different way,
in a special way that words cannot describe.
I might be broken
I can still be your everthing....
Words might hurt,
People will never change.....
Why me? is the question for the people
No one can hears my voice
I am so tired
Life seems so hard....
Things are pulling me down
Situations might be different
I never meant to break your heart,
Someone will love you more than me
You will see a shadow of me
Always beside you
Coz, without you
My life doesn't have a meaning
Sometimes life shows us stars
Sometimes life gives us thorns
It can be hard sometimes
I made these memories for myself
It is the only thing, that's mine
I cannot explain the feeling
But i felt at peace,
For the First time in days
It doesn't matter which road i take,
What i say,
What i do,
I will always end up at the same point
I want to just move on
I will keep this moment forever
till my heart stops beating.....
Never leave a true relation for a few faults
Nobody is perfect ,
And at the end.....
Affection is always greater
This is just a simple thought
I am foolish, and stupid
Coz, I keep looking for you in everyone,
I know no one else other you
But, you keep looking for someone else
Yet you don't see my feelings
I know, you never knew me, nor my heart
That beats for you
But, I looked only at you
I am happy watching you.....
I truly hope to see you again.
I think about you everyday
I sure do miss you
I will miss you for the rest of my life
I will keep on loving you Kim jonghyun.
As I fell from the void into a world of
mostly ephemeral things; with bubbles floating in the wind mixed with moments of fleeting joy,
Imagination of a lifetime in a moment,
I guess this is seeking you.
Moments did float by like a leaf in the stream
Your music is like sailing,
Water rushing through veins,
Strong winds playing to the roaring thunder, creating a notion
of high-pitched musical note.
I looked at the sky and thought, life is all bubbles, beautiful and pristine, while it still lasts, tried reaching for the sky.
And I reached out to the universe, and it left stars in my palms for, I always dreamt of holding them. not the ephemeral things shooting stars, that tend t...
Love is such an obstinate language, neither you understood me
nor, could I express my love to you.
Life does feel unfair,
I don't know when things became so complicated
Everytime I see you, I try not to think of you
I always decide, I am not going to think of you,
Over and over again.....
However, I come across your existence in a beautiful way.
This really makes my day, but I also feel sad at the same time.
I love you, you told the entire world through music,
But, I wanted to be the only one to love you.....
There are times that make me think back about you
No matter how you look at me,
With smiles or with seriousness,
I will never forget you
At all times, infact everywh...
Someday, out of the blue
I hope you will return
A beautiful soul, so desolate, lost, wandering, searching for your destination.
You were ecstatic and blessed with victory in life.
The entire world bestowed love and blessings on you,
And you left suddenly without a word
I still cry, thinking about you...
I tried to convince myself by saying that it is a matter of feelings...
Doesn't seem to work!!!!
My heart still remembers your love for music...
It was stupid of me, to want to be your one and only love...
I am still at crossroads, trying very hard to forget you
I guess, it's impossible to forget you......
I am still here living without you, but still loving you....
With the world steeped into silence,
In the piercing dark stillness of the night
The stars remain silent in the sky...
The world seems so empty...
yet, I search for something that left my heart restless and in pain,
My beating heart knows that I have to endure this unending despair.
I don't know if my love for you was real,
I keep on convincing myself that I love you everyday,
even though, I feel so stupid
Your existence is so deeply rooted in my heart,
I don't know if it is love????
But, I sure did miss you today,
I will miss you tomorrow, and I will miss you everyday....
Look into my heart and you will see the meaning of love
I know it is a dream,
I don't want to let you go,
Your love gave me a new meaning,
Losing you, brings tears to my eyes...
I thought you were safe in my heart forever....
But, now you have found a better place for yourself....
And, all I have to do is send you away.
I hope you find the peace you always craved for in life,
I am just left behind with a sad, aching heart and tearful eyes....
If I ever meet you again, tell me the meaning of love by looking into my eyes.
Do explain this to my aching heart, coz I"ll be waiting....
Is it impossible for you to give me your love,
Because, now I love you very much....
I guess I am just a mess
Or maybe I am just lonely
Life just seems bitter
but I know my head's a storm
and my chest is empty without you
A musical star
I keep wondering if you will ever know me,
I do think about you everyday,
Which has made me very different ?
You had everything,
Yet, you chose to give it all away;
and embrace eternity....
Your life seemed so perfect
I Didn't you give it a thought that,
something which I missed?
You were a shining star
Polished and perfect
Without a speck of dust
You were the definition of perfection,
Living in perfection.
Life of perfection.
Sometimes, I think if I still love you.....
Although, time has passed on,
but your memory still lingers on in my life.
They know me so well.
I’m funny, silly, and positive.
I’m hyper, always smiling, and always laughing.
But, they don’t know me as well as they think.
They don’t know what I do when people aren’t looking,
when my friends aren’t with me,
and when the house is silent.
If they knew me as well as they thought,
they wouldn’t be laughing with me.
they’d be crying.
A Parallel life
I can’t wake up
I open my eyes up to partly clear skies, I look around and see a ghost town, a place I once knew.
A place I once loved, and yet I still wanted to fly up above.
The partly clear sky isn't all that meets the eye,
there is a black cloud I'm in the midst.
Alone once again
Forced to deal with my thoughts,
The more I struggle and struggle my patience starts to wear me down.
I'm stuck in a world that I don't want to know, and there is no way to wake up.........
All of my life. I have been trying to find myself, trying to get somewhere. I have tried over and over to get things right, and when things are looking up for me, it's like a wave is being crashed into me, knocking me deeper and farther into the ocean.
Some days are better. Floating peacefully above the water. Then the insecurities and pain drag me down like sharks. They take me to the bottom where there is nothing but sand, creatures, and darkness. There is no way up.
Whenever I act fine, it seems as if I am perfectly enjoying paradise above the surface. I just need to make sure other people are up there safely so then I have to worry about nobody but myself. I know there isn't a way t...
"While he was feeling better.. Something was still giving him anxiety. He couldn't understand what it was until he opened that book. Something fell out and as he picked it up from the ground...
with trembling hands, a familiar aura filled the room. The writing at the back, had the date and address. It was reminiscent of the bygone days, his life, his love. Tears welled up his eyes.
His heart was filled with unknown happiness and the memory of his love left him refreshed.
Thoughts of contacting her started lingering in his mind.
Things evolve, people change, situations change, will there be a chance for a new life
He got up and drove to her place. Standing at a distance, feeling his heart, h...
I wonder what colors are,
just like a gust of wind bringing me your memories....
It was raining today,
the feel of the raindrops on my palms,
reminded me of you
It made me realize
"Memories are like raindrops
the tighter you grab it, the faster it slips away"
Take me somewhere, someplace where I can just look at you all the time
My only regret is not knowing you
I once fell in love
with a bright star,
Nobody knew that I loved the bright star,
Nobody knew that I even existed,
I guess, I just pushed myself to love the beautiful star with all my heart......
I learnt an important lesson,
love chooses you,
not the other way around.
all I have is your music
and beautiful memories of you....
Meet me again somewhere,
where you can see my love for you....
I want you to love me like I do.
I never asked for the star to love me in return,
It hurts continuously, now that you are not here anymore....
With time, it will be the same as before....
Stars do shine and die,
but, your light will always linger on in my memory........
My love will...