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Liz Hollis

PO# 45090
United States
United States
I am me. I'm a wife in love. I'm mom who is doing her best to raise humans. I love Jesus. I'm a poet. I believe in reckless passion in all you do
February 18, 2020
 

Laying next to you
Your breathing becomes my lullaby
Your toes touch mine
In a goodnight kiss
Our bed is a dreamland boat
You are my watchful captain
When dark seas of my nightmares
Threaten to swallow me
Your arms reach me like a life raft
As I toss and turn
You anchor me
A brush of skin
A sleepy moan
I'm no longer alone
Cheeky winks
Nodding off
In a blink, I see our life
One you painted for me so many times
With words so precious,
I made them mine
My safe harbor
You promised me a home
My love, my life
You weather the storms
That used to drown me
Holding me close
We count the stars
Tangled on the deck
We watch the falling morning dew
We make a few wish...

JUST LOVE
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January 31, 2020
 

False kings and hypocrisy
That's what you say I praise
But all you have lived is tragedy
Of all the lies I choose
Being worthy is the worst
Bitter tears taste like broken hope
Dreams I'll never reach
Laying on the kitchen floor
Fear holds me here
Unable to reach for relief
How messy would my peace be?
How can I win a war, when its waged inside my mind?
If I cut out all the evil parts.
How much of me would be left?
A mangled masterpiece
Someone free of demons
It only cost me the hate I have
Like a shattered mirror
I'm on the floor in pieces
My hands are shredded
Looking for what I'm missing
As I cut out all the pain
I somehow misplaced my peace
A broken doll isn't a home...

I AM WHO I AM
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January 1, 2020
 

False kings and hypocrisy
That's what you say I praise
But all you have lived is tragedy
Of all the lies I choose
Being worthy is the worst
Bitter tears taste like broken hope
Dreams I'll never reach the kitchen floor
Fear holds me here
Unable to reach for relief
How messy would my peace be?
How can I win a war, when its waged inside my mind?
If I cut out all the evil parts.
How much of me would be left?
A mangled masterpiece
Someone free of demons
It only cost me the hate I have
Like a shattered mirror
I'm on the floor in pieces
My hands are shredded
Looking for what I'm missing
As I cut out all the pain
I somehow misplaced my peace
A broken doll isn't a home fo...

MOMENT IN THE SUN
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October 2, 2019
 

Willow wisp
Smoke on my fingertips
Breathe this in
Sugar sweet poison
Harm me again
Pull me up high
Just to drop me down again
Keep me here
Heavy head, Heavy heart
Beautiful fire
Heat me up
All desire
Manic depression
Keeps me going
On the edge of my seat
What will I feel next?
My life is so incomplete.
Anxious
Angry
Alone
But I have to keep going
Set my eyes on something
Keep my body in motion
I don’t want to die
But I cannot keep living
How do you keep your story going?
When you can't tell what's a beginning and what is your ending.

SUPPORT AND SAVE US!
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September 25, 2019
 

Mi Corazon late con estas culturas
Como tambores en el calor
Los idiomas me dominan
Envuelveme en dulces silabas
Susurro en mi alma
Torre de balbuceo
Gran caida del hombre
Lenguas de amour
Conectanos a todos




My heart beats with these cultures,
like drums in the heat
languages dominate me.
Wrap me up in sweet syllables
whispered into my soul
tower of babble
mans great fall
languages of love
connect us all

WORLD WATERCOLOR MONTH
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September 21, 2019
 

I crawl into bed
But I cant move far
Chained to the side
My a cord of wires
Holding my life in my hands
I have never been so flippant
Swiping away years
Like deleting my history
Click here
Send there
Nothing has meaning
Our DNA has started bleeding
Ones and zeros a morose code
Begging for help
We like the tragic news story
And donate to a stranger
Find a better cause
But I see this danger
The wires are coming
Pulling me in
A world that is unreal
These lights slowly blind you
And lead you deeper in
Once the wires take over
The slaughter begins

WHITE CLOCK
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September 17, 2019
 

I'm overwhelmed
Can’t you see?
I’m so fragile one more thing
Could break me
All I need is simple
Help me out or I might crumple
So low like I'm buried under the surface
When i speak can't you see
The dirt falling off of me
I'm all alone and that's the one thing
You promised I'd never have to be
I'm stressed and worried
Exhausted beyond my limits
Why can't you sense it ?
  I lay next you and I hope you see
How can you not feel the sadness radiating off me?
How can I not affect you?
I feel radioactive
Everything I touch goes up in flames
I'm sitting here living dust
Going on with life
While you watch me
Slowly crumple
My mind convinces me I'm insane
You love m...

SUNSET LOVE
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September 9, 2019
 

When you love a disease
You enjoy what sickens me
Heart in my stomach
But it is better than my sleeve
I hate your love it starves me
Death would be more pleasing
Than you encouraging me
You want me to be beautiful
Thin and fit is what you say
Something you never had
Thunder thighs is the first curse I learn
You find your salvation in layers
So, I try to do the same
A holy concoction of pills is your meal
The mirror becomes my measure of worth
I wait until I’m so thin that I disappear
I count my ribs in the dark
I can’t wait for you to see
I know finally I’ve done something to make you proud of me

When I reveal my triumph
Pull back all my layers
Your jealously con...

RAINY WINDOW
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September 9, 2019
 

Beautiful Bruises all over me
watch the pain bloom
like a lovely spring
growing deeper in color
maybe blue or green
like ink spreading
I'm fascinated
a masterpiece painted on my skin
its infecting itch
I now need pain to fill my fix
I know what to say to make you hold me tight
It's all my fault
I lay awake and welcome the burn
shoulders, arms and thighs
I crave the lie
It's all my fault
Ugly is such a powerful thing
I know you like me as a fragile thing
When no one around wants me
Possession is power
A hematoma so marvelous
The brand runs through my blood
I am yours it says
Claimed and wanted
I lay out my arms
Your finger prints more familiar than my own
Slice ...

ADDICTION
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August 27, 2019
 

Words run rampant through my mind
Slashed onto the page
A heavy price for peace and quiet
My eyelids see more than just sights
I am the lover of lists to be made
An endless parade of what to do,
of what to say.
Words crawl into my mind
They slide down my shoulders
They force my fingers to dance;
With a pen or pencil perhaps across a keyboard.
I am composed of words
Waiting to be written
Anxiously awaiting for their time in black and white
Words whispered
Stanzas screamed
Let me be heard!
They beat through my heart like adrenaline
Giving me false starts
My hands twitch, ache and shake
Phantom letters
Forever etched in the air
They command me without a care
No sleep,...

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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August 20, 2019
 

The melody of your skin lingers
Against me
The scent of your need
Intoxicating
Your fingers curve
Enticing me
My lips are raw from your want
Agony so sweet
Only blissful pleasure
Is what you give to me
Lovely lines
I trace all my favorite places
My sighs become your symphony
Our shared breath is all you need
Lovers embrace
Nothing else matters
Not time or space
Whispered words
Pulling us higher
Syncopate
Our personal passion
Where you begin
Is where I end
Completing each other
Comfort with my best friend

JUST LOVE
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August 6, 2019
 

When I was young
I did foolish things
Like play in my mothers makeup
Tell stories
Say I believed in me.
I heard you say stupid
Felt the power of that word
It slid across my skin
Like a chemical burn
Seeping into my bones.
When I was older
I did reckless things
Like hold a knife to my skin
See how fast I could drive
Say how I wished to die.
I felt the slap
Sting across my cheek
Heard you tell me
I am nothing.
Those words bounced around my being
Shattering the positive
Until your words hollowed me out.
As became whole
I felt you tighten your grip
Prepare to throw me down the stairs
But you cannot break someone
Who welcomes pain
I invite each bruise
A masterp...

RANDOM ACTS OF POETRY - DAY
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August 5, 2019
 

Being a mom is...
Indescribable joy
Unconditional love
Long nights
Early mornings
Messy breakfast
Late night snacks
And time
Always passes too fast.

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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August 5, 2019
 

Broken hearts
Broken thoughts
I'm not good enough
Know the lies
Better than love
Where am I?
I closed myself away
A little at a time
Painful personality
Caused
Painful memories
Relive those
Until
You want to die
Wasteful
I am full
Of ruined words
Ugly things
I believe about me
You told me I am little
So much
That I made myself small
Let this tower lean over me
Of all the horrid things
That I know are untrue
But I give them power
Brick by brick
I am my worst enemy
Built this wall for you
The only price of my destruction
Was a little deception
I was built to believe
All these lies
My fragile mind
Unable to believe
That the only thing I wa...

WORLD WATERCOLOR MONTH
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July 30, 2019
 

A blinding pain
Inciting my rage
Hiding inside
What I feel I can’t say
Help me I scream
But you turn away
Assume I don’t mean it
Save your concern
For a different day
Burning inside
Each moment I'm afraid
I cling to the stake
Wishing to die
Terrified of life
Hoping for a quiet end
Happiness
I should be grateful
Something I never thought
I'd hold
A home for my heart
But its scared to beat
The end will come
And all too soon
This will end
My living dream.
Alone I'll find myself
Judged
Found in wanting
Never enough
I tried so hard
Wishing and waiting
Why did I hope?
Now it's all ending
Scared again
How will I die?
Now that my belief i...

DAY OF TRUTH
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July 11, 2019
 



Imperfect Imposter
Too many emotions
Just a fraying bag of sanity
Leave me alone
To mend
My unwinding seams.
I’m like a shattered
Stain glass window
Beautifully broken
Full of color
Sharp
The memories of being whole
Haunt me
Light shines through me
While I tear apart
Just glue and string
Waiting around
To become
A Perfect Thing

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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June 30, 2019
 

My dad is Portuguese
And I never knew what that meant
Until I said I'm just like him
And someone pointed out
That we don't match
But I have his smile
And the way he laughs
We reason the same
Our morals match.
He taught me to love
And how to be loved
So how can DNA
Be more defining
Than all these lovely
Memories.
I say I'm just like my dad
But appearance isnt what I mean
It's all of the million little things
That make up a family.

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!
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June 21, 2019
 

                                            Parabatai
You are my warrior of words
My wisdom in motion
My friend always
Where you walk so will I
Moreover
Let me leave with thee
Archangels
Impart us with love
Do to us
With favor
What thee would wish
Parabatai
Sings with my soul
Together
Dance with my heart
Together
Across my arm
Let me shoulder your burden
Let me share it with thee
For your heart is my own
Sweet Parabatai

I AM WHO I AM
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June 18, 2019
 

If anger is a fire;
Why does love start with a spark?
How does our desire burn?
If love is everything;
Why is it described as something destructive?
Our love could be a castle
Our love is as deep as the ocean
Our love could be vast stretching out like the sky
But
Castles are not immune to time
They crumble
Oceans are dark and have secrets
They drown
Skies give way to night
A new beauty
How can our love transcend;
Our frail humanity?
This earth is filled with broken things
When I met you
A new adventure started
And I became whole.
But
With a beginning comes an ending
Where can our love grow and never die?
Our hearts have a numbered beat
But this love inside me cannot...

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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June 17, 2019
 

Chasing happiness
But not finding joy
Wandering throughout life
You become like stone
Opposites are born through
Stubbornness
This seeing things through
A new view of you
I wait for you to change
Loving unchanging stone
Wandering through
Your poisonous personalities
Taking the toxicity
Filtering you through my soul
Giving up everything
Giving you all the control
Searching for happiness
I wonder what you see
When my expiring joy
Is all I have left of me

MOMENT IN THE SUN
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June 17, 2019
 

I fell asleep
To your heartbeat
The solitude of your arms
The distance that lives between
You and I.
The rushing of your thoughts and dreams
Standing on top of me
I push you forward
So, you can grow
Kill myself with the lie
That my time to grow will come soon
All I see is your hopes come true
While inside me the lie lives
Waiting to be set free
Needing an outlet
waiting for them to come true
I need you to listen
Reassure me,
That these lies are true?
The weight of your arms lay heavy
Holding me
Turning a place of love
Into a garden of bitterness
This distance is deafening
The promises I needed to hear
Lay and rest with me
A grave of all my hopes and dreams;
But...

PORTLAND SIDEWALK
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June 13, 2019
 

Water washes away my wishes
The what ifs that haunt me
I climb into the shower
a place of strength and rebirth
This water washes away my tears
The rushing sound muffles my sobs
I walk in broken and some how
I clean the brokenness away
I am new
My resolve becomes concrete
As the water drips away
I become stone
Not weathered down into nothing
But compressed into something more
resilient.
I find solace in my warm rain
A storm I control on my worst days

DAY OF TRUTH
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June 3, 2019
 

I cannot sleep
Not without your breath next to me
My restlessness is wild
My mind races
My eyes search
I need the melody
Of your trust
Sleeping next to me
I need the planes of your face
For they are mine to gaze upon
I need your rest
You are my comfort
I rely on your shoulders
Your chest is my cradle
The only place I can lay my head
To press my ear to your skin
Where my future lives
The only rhythm I cannot count
For I never wish to know
The number God placed in your heart
I prefer to think this symphony
Of you living is infinite
Because this is the only forever
I can live in
Where your feet reach for mine
Where we sink and never drown
Where we dissolve ...

INTROVERTS WEEK
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June 3, 2019
 

Your impression
This is all I have left of me
My soul without companion;
is an empty thing indeed
This vessel was crafted to be a home
not to be left
but to be loved
I am aching with abandon
these arms cave without someone to hold
a crumpling, forgotten cathedral
where our desperate love
was the worship we clung to
this heart heaves without its other half
these feet arch,
as if I could run to you
why was I carved from dust
only to be left in the rain
I dissolve
I am nothing but a sound
an abandoned scream
one that was suffocated
snuffed out
before the world heard my
agony
leaving has never felt
This heart shattering
like the earth breaking
Each breath I ta...

MADE WITH LOVE
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May 28, 2019
 

Let me chase
These childhood dreams
The milestones
That mark our life
I see you
Accomplishing
Making achievements
A reality
Let me look up to you
So that when I grow
I know the places
I'll want to go

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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May 28, 2019
 

This is your home
Old, scarred
As familiar as a memory
As I become your mom
My voice is the soundtrack
To your childhood
My sweet kisses mend
wounds and broken hearts
I am the lullaby that rocks you to sleep
You are my heart that keeps racing
The clock never slows down
The sunsets to quickly
But these nights are forever
I'm worrying
I'm never enough
I'm everything you need
I'm the qualities you have
The standard that you hate
Please love me a little longer
Like the nights you yearned for my arms
Keep my tears a secret
Your lack of caution
My burden to carry
I'd lift the world if it kept you safe
Nestled in the mountains
Once protected in the cold
...

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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May 28, 2019
 

Close my eyes and let me see
All the things I want to be
Don't hide your true self
Little one dance
To your very own beat
Don't be afraid to grow
But don't push it
Bounds or leaps
Let it come
Don't be scared
Hold my hand
We will carry on
Close your eyes dear one
See what I see
Ignore the world
Just let them be
See yourself
Love yourself
Set that girl free

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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May 28, 2019
 

Dreaming of the beach
Waking and sleeping
Lullaby of the ocean
Steadiness in the sand
Dig deep my precious babe
One day an aloha lae
Will lay on your head
Heady perfume
Of the island breeze
Which too soon blows away
Goodbye paradise
Aloha
Until I see you again

CREATIVE WRITING
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May 23, 2019
 

A museum of people
Set your perfect up for others to see
Not a hospital of the broken
but a showcase of false atrocities  
They watch and see what you say
Mistakes held against you
No judge or jury in the grapevine
Love when it's convenient
kindness wont benefit you
If your lost alone
That's when we feel,
Right at home
Paint a smile on your lips
Hide the sinfulness
Forbearance at it's best
Waiting for acceptance
Try to be better
You wont be good enough
A wolf is inviting you in
A feast of innocence
Waiting to begin

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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April 5, 2019
 

Drawing nearer to the sun
Look what I have become
Giving life
Like breathing
Is easy
Taking time to not fret
When time feels consuming
Rocking closer to an epiphany
Wondering where you were
At the end of my start?
Our beginning is lost
Like a story
That starts in the middle
Words missing
Reaching across the page
Creeping through the air
You touch me
And I feel you
We crumble like dust
Infinite possibilities
Wander closer to the sun
Feel the heat
A desperate spark
Look at what we have become
Three people
From two
Giving life is hard
Like agony
Taking time to watch them begin
Let them consume every minute
Because too soon
They will each f...

POETRY MONTH
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